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To Governor Bush: Was it the Right Decision?

bushDear Governor Bush,

The title of this blog is vague yet I hope will get people’s attention who normally would not read blogs I write.

It is sad, but true, that if I wrote something like “I used to live in Florida and wanted to thank you for what you did for the mentally Ill”  it would be ignored by almost everyone except mental health  advocates.

That is because the topic of mental illness and the failing mental health system is a taboo subject in this election. The media and candidates refuse to talk about how they would solve the crisis that affects us all.  Some of the candidates contribute to the stigma that is attached to the mentally ill.  Do you not believe me? Then, read Where the 2016 Candidates Stand on Mental Health Issues by Time Magazine.

I am writing to you, Governor Bush, because I attended UCF and taught for about 9 years where you were governor.   I recently found out that you had played a part in people with mental illness receiving  better access to services. I thank you for that. I just wish you could have done more as governor and talked more about it during your campaign.  Solving the problem is so important to so many people. In fact, 25% of the people in America have a mental illness.  All the advocates really want to know what the candidates are going to do about this issue that is just as important as the other issues that are talked about.  Ref1

I now live in a state where we have not yet voted. I am an independent voter and I am so undecided that the idea of writing in Mickey Mouse is becoming a reality. I am writing to you to see if you can somehow get people talking about the issue of mental health to help other advocates and I decide who we should vote for.  I know it is too late for you to make your case and get elected. However, while you are in the national spotlight, it would be really admirable if you could insist that the media demands answers from the candidates of how they are going to SOLVE the problem.

I want this question answered: Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

Mental Illness and the Mental Health Crisis affects every single American! Think about it: It does not just affect the mentally ill (many veterans) and their families. It has an impact on those who have lost loved ones at the hands of someone with a severe mental illness or the people who were traumatized because they were there.

If you don’t know anyone who has a mental illness and were never at a tragedy scene, have you ever watched the media coverage of one? If you have, I would say you are affected too. If it were me, I would be worried that an unstable person with a mental illness would come in and start shooting at my workplace, my child’s school, where I worship, or at a public place where a lot of people are.

Therefore, I would have to say that pretty much every American should want to know what their future president is going to do about this issue. The voters want to know how they are going to solve it, and don’t want candidates to just brush it off and say a few words about it. It is just as important as many of the other issues discussed and definitely more important than the entertaining theatrics.

I want you to know the things that the mentally ill face:

  • not knowing what symptoms to look for because the public is not educated
  • embarrassment  to get help
  • not knowing where to get help
  • can’t get help when they nee it
  • being jailed instead of hospitalized
  • the revolving doors because they can’t get outpatient care
  • mistreatment by staff members in hospitals
  • being ignored when they try to reach out to supervisors or patient relations after mistreatment
  • being ignored after they plead the people who represent them in Congress to do something to help them and others- They get no response from emails, snail mail, phone calls, and social media
  • being ignored by the media when they offer to tell their story and they want nothing to do with it and very rarely even talk about the mentally ill at all, especially patients who are dying due to mistreatment at hospitals and jails
  • insurance companies  deciding that they can’t get meds that have worked for a long time
  • not being able to afford medications
  • Discrimination and Stigma- If you don’t think we are discriminated against, then read I have a Dream Re: Mental Illness

A a mental health advocate and someone who struggles with a mental illness, I have written many articles and made many attempts to contact the media and politicians over the years without success. The thousands of people who read my blogs are usually other advocates and they encourage me with my efforts. The problem is that I need you and other people with influence to hear my voice and theirs.

The mental health crisis and the mentally ill can’t be kept out of the country with a wall.  We are here and should have a voice. We are human beings who have endured not only our illness, but the stigma and discrimination that goes with it.  We are Americans just like everyone else and even though many candidates might think we  are not smart enough or too crazy to find our ways to the polls, we will.  We just need to know what candidate is going to be on our side so we know who to support and vote for.  (Please see below my signature all the other blogs I have written regarding mental health advocacy and asking the media and politicians for help.)

Sincerely,

Michelle Clark

Bipolar Bandit blog  Twitter Facebook Pinterest 

Founder of FB page Mental Health Advocates United

Founder of FB Group:  Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses

Bipolar Bandit blog  Twitter Facebook Pinterest 

Picture credit: USA Today (captured from video)

Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

Did you miss the debate? Mental Illness Was Not Discussed

Mental Health Should be a Priority

40 Million Voters Ignored

Why June 3rd Is an Important Day in the US, Who is Invited, and What is the Agenda?

Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses Need to Unite

What can a mental health advocate do to help people with mental illnesses?

What is required to be a Mental Health Care Advocate?

Encouragement from a Political Mental Health Advocate and News Channel

Mental Health Awareness Day & Thanks to Some Governors

Appeal to the media and politicians: Does anyone care that it is Mental Illness Awareness Week in America?

Major Overhaul Needed Re: Mental Health System


Dear Dr.Rand Paul, We need your help!

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Dear Senator Rand Paul,

The title of this blog is vague yet I hope will get people’s attention who normally would not read blogs I write.

It is sad, but true, that if I wrote something like “The Mentally Ill need Senator Paul’s help'” it would be ignored by almost everyone except mental help advocates.

That is because the topic of mental illness and the failing mental health system is a taboo subject in this election. The media and candidates refuse to talk about how they would solve the crisis that affects us all.  Some of the candidates contribute to the stigma that is attached to the mentally ill.  Do you not believe me? Then, read Where the 2016 Candidates Stand on Mental Health Issues by Time Magazine.

I am writing to you, Senator Paul, because you are someone  I have liked and admired for a long time. I am hoping that because you are in the national spotlight right now, you can encourage the media and the candidates to address this important issue.

I don’t usually reveal who I would vote for when writing blog entries, participating in my social media sites, or even talking to others.  However, I am very disappointed in all the candidates right now. I live in a state that has not yet voted in the primaries and have no idea who I would vote for.

This topic of mental health is very important to me among others and I hope that before I get a chance to vote I will know how each candidate would SOLVE the this problem.   If I don’t get any kind of answer, I will be writing your name on the ballot.  I have thought about others, but definitely do not have a favorite.  I want to ask them all and have with no response: Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

Mental Illness and the Mental Health Crisis affects every single American! Think about it: It does not just affect the mentally ill (many veterans) and their families. It has an impact on those who have lost loved ones at the hands of someone with a severe mental illness or the people who were traumatized because they were there.

If you don’t know anyone who has a mental illness and were never at a tragedy scene, have you ever watched the media coverage of one? If you have, I would say you are affected too. If it were me, I would be worried that an unstable person with a mental illness would come in and start shooting at my workplace, my child’s school, where I worship, or at a public place where a lot of people are.

Therefore, I would have to say that pretty much every American should want to know what their future president is going to do about this issue. The voters want to know how they are going to solve it, and don’t want candidates to just brush it off and say a few words about it. It is just as important as many of the other issues discussed and definitely more important than the entertaining theatrics.

I want you to know the things that the mentally ill face:

  • not knowing what symptoms to look for because the public is not educated
  • embarrassment  to get help
  • not knowing where to get help
  • can’t get help when they nee it
  • being jailed instead of hospitalized
  • the revolving doors because they can’t get outpatient care
  • mistreatment by staff members in hospitals
  • being ignored when they try to reach out to supervisors or patient relations after mistreatment
  • being ignored after they plead the people who represent them in Congress to do something to help them and others- They get no response from emails, snail mail, phone calls, and social media
  • being ignored by the media when they offer to tell their story and they want nothing to do with it and very rarely even talk about the mentally ill at all, especially patients who are dying due to mistreatment at hospitals and jails
  • insurance companies  deciding that they can’t get meds that have worked for a long time
  • not being able to afford medications
  • Discrimination and Stigma- If you don’t think we are discriminated against, then read I have a Dream Re: Mental Illness

A a mental health advocate and someone who struggles with a mental illness, I have written many articles and made many attempts to contact the media and politicians over the years without success. The thousands of people who read my blogs are usually other advocates and they encourage me with my efforts. The problem is that I need you and other people with influence to hear my voice and theirs.

The mental health crisis and the mentally ill can’t be kept out of the country with a wall.  We are here and should have a voice. We are strong human beings who have endured not only our illness, but the stigma and discrimination that goes with it.  We are Americans just like everyone else and even though many candidates might think we  are not smart enough or too crazy to find our ways to the polls, we will.  We just need to know what candidate is going to be on our side so we know who to support and vote for.  (Please see below my signature all the other blogs I have written regarding mental health advocacy and asking the media and politicians for help.)

Sincerely,

Michelle Clark

Bipolar Bandit blog  Twitter Facebook Pinterest 

Founder of FB page Mental Health Advocates United

Founder of FB Group:  Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses

Bipolar Bandit blog  Twitter Facebook Pinterest 

Picture Source: Twitter (otherwise unknown)  

Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

Did you miss the debate? Mental Illness Was Not Discussed

Mental Health Should be a Priority

40 Million Voters Ignored

Why June 3rd Is an Important Day in the US, Who is Invited, and What is the Agenda?

Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses Need to Unite

What can a mental health advocate do to help people with mental illnesses?

What is required to be a Mental Health Care Advocate?

Encouragement from a Political Mental Health Advocate and News Channel

Mental Health Awareness Day & Thanks to Some Governors

Appeal to the media and politicians: Does anyone care that it is Mental Illness Awareness Week in America?

Major Overhaul Needed Re: Mental Health System

 

 

 

 


Do you want my vote? Let me know why!

election 2016I think it is important for a president to listen to what the people say. It is very frustrating that I can’t find a voice.
I have written numerous letters, emails, made phone calls and tried to communicate with the media and politicians for years.
I did hear back from a few governors one year when I was working on a project. I also received a personal letter from Clinton who was no longer in office. I have also had the support of my own governor.
However, my voice just does not get heard like it should.  I suspect why and know for a fact that it is not just my voice that is unheard, but many people like me.
I have a mental illness. I am an American who graduated from college and worked as a teacher and manager even though I struggle with a severe mental illness. I have never committed a crime.
I am a human being and deserve the time of a candidate/president and the media as much as someone who is unemployed, worried about health care, concerned about national security and is disappointed in Washington.
I love my country and want it to be better. However, I don’t see that happening unless mental illness is talked about and there are actual steps that are taken to help with the failed mental health system.
The candidates need to stop dodging questions about mental health and the media needs to start asking about mental health. We want solutions. By we, I don’t just need mean the mentally ill or their families or the professionals who work at psychiatric hospitals and prison guards who are seeing revolving doors.
EVERY American is affected by mental illness in some way.  National tragedies are just one way, but did you know that 1 in 4 people in the United States have a mental illness?
I have contacted you via your form, left a message on your phone, have repeatedly referred to you on Twitter. I even for the first time ever contributed to a campaign.
I am an independent voter and live in NC so I am not sure if my vote will even matter. What I do know is that you do have a chance if you are willing to listen to the mentally ill and demand other candidates to do so also. I have to admit, you were never my first pick. However, you now are the only one I feel can possibly change the mental health system. You are the only one who has talked about it to my knowledge other than awful things other candidates have said.
I have been impressed with how you turned the budget around in Washington, have contributed so much to Ohio’s success and am hoping you can do the same in Washington.
PLEASE respond to me as I have ways to reach thousands of people who suffer from mental illness and since we represent 25% of the voters we would be a great group to target.
I have said on the form I filled out and on the phone that I would be willing to help you in anyway by sharing my story and endorsing you.  I just need you to talk to me and soon as more primaries are coming up and I would like to start getting the word out asap that Kasich will fight for the mentally ill and make the mental health system better. We want someone who is going to solve it not just talk about it being a problem.
My latest blog that I have shared to at least 200,000 people is
A Whole New Ball Game in March  It starts out by quoting you.
Patrick Kennedy who has bipolar disorder is a  follower of mine on FB and I have corresponded with many other celebrities who have a mental illnesses or are advocates. I also know other people who are great advocates locally and nationally. I have been on my local board that helps those with mental illnesses, organized an event that revolved around mental health (Embrace Life Day) I also have been involved in ad have contacts in  NAMI, Mental Health America and DBSA and Bring Change 2 Mind
I can get the word out- BELIEVE ME- I may have a mental illness, but I can make a difference. The stigma needs to stop!  I am a human who has fought a hard fight and deserve the right to tell my story and actually have the media and politicians hear it.
I think it is important that a president/candidate hear the voices of the people.  If you don’t respond to people (the mentally ill) we feel like our voices don’t matter. We might have a mental illness, but we have just as much right to vote as someone  who does not. Do you want our vote?  Please say yes. I hope to hear from you soon as more primaries are coming up and I can help you get the word out to the 25% of voters who have a mental illness and want to support someone who cares about them. If I don’t hear from you soon, I will have to assume you don’t care about the mental health system like I thought you did and you don’t want to talk about the taboo subject of mental illness and want to contribute to the stigma by not talking about it.  I am not sure who I will vote for as I am not sure if anyone else cares about us like I think you do.  So, please contact me.  I sent you my contact information in the email I sent you and the phone call I made to your headquarters.
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A Whole New Ball Game in March

bball2Kasich, a presidential candidate still in the race, has been quoted as saying, “I’m going to win Ohio, and when I win Ohio it’s a whole new ballgame.”  Source

I am not sure if he is right and as an independent voter who has not yet voted in the primary election still has no clue who I would vote for and not sure it is really going to matter when I do get to vote.

However, he could be right.   It could be a whole new ball game.  Kasich could somehow come from behind just like basketball teams in your March Madness brackets could totally surprise you and everyone else.

Life is full of uncertainties. The winner of the NCAA Championship is important to the players, colleges, teams and even those who participate in brackets.

However, it is so much more important who wins  the presidency than who is the next champion in basketball. The candidate who wins the election will win their way to the White House. Are  winning and earning the same thing?  Absolutely not!

When it comes to finding the winning candidate, it has become who can say the worst things about their opponents.  In basketball, coaches and players might say that one team deserved to win because they fought hard and fans might say there were bad calls by the referees.  When it comes to good sportsmanship, respect, and playing fair the athletes have the right idea.  However, for this election and for most politicians the “game” is different.

In basketball, you don’t see the total bashing of  opponents like you do in our current election. The one who wins the basketball championship earns it on merit and by proving how and why they make it to the top.  The candidates, however, are not proving anything. They talk about what the problems are, but very little is talked about how they are going to solve anything. One of those things is the mental health system. When you don’t talk about how you are going to solve the issues, do you deserve to be living in the White House in January?   Do you really want a president who wins a boxing match or someone who can best serve our nation?

I think the one who wins the election is the person who can best serve our country and make a difference. They address the issues like national security and balancing the budget. They talk about unemployment and most definitely talk about recent tragedies especially concerning those who have a mental illness.  However, they also need to come up with reasonable solutions  to these issues.

However, the candidates would rather shoot baskets, foul, and play a game to see who can entertain the best and  get evicted from the game because of name calling and not respecting each other. They learn their opponent’s strengths and weaknesses and that helps win.  However, they don’t broadcast  these things all over the news.  They win on merit and by sharing how they are going to win the voters.  They share with us that they are going to listen and respect that our country is a nation of   “people by the people” They  need to to tell us how they are going to solve the problems that our nation faces.

Politicians may fight hard, but do they win on merit when they won’t talk about things like how they will solve the mental health crisis?  Do they deserve to be our president when they don’t assure us that they are working for us? Do we want them to be our leader in chief when they don’t listen to us?

People with mental illnesses are listened to the least.  Do they want to contribute to the discrimination of the mentally ill and not do anything about the broken mental health system?  All voters are affected by mental illness in some way.

If the candidates do not start talking about what they are going to do, our generation will be dealing with the revolving doors of the prisons and psychiatric wards. Our children and grandchildren will have to deal with the lack of care and mistreatment of the people who are viewed as less than human beings. They will have to keep dealing with the homeless who often have severe mental illnesses and  will have to still deal with national tragedies caused by the mentally ill  who have tried to get  help.

If they want to win the election, they need to listen to the people who have a mental illness, their friends and families, the professionals who work with them and people who have been affected by tragedies at the hands of a mentally ill individual.

While picking your bracket, be thinking about who you would have in the final four and as the champion in the upcoming showdown in basketball. If it was a president you were picking out, be thinking about WHO YOU WANT TO WIN rather than who you think will win.  That is the person you should support and vote for.

Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

Did you miss the debate? Mental Illness Was Not Discussed

Mental Health Should be a Priority

40 Million Voters Ignored

Why June 3rd Is an Important Day in the US, Who is Invited, and What is the Agenda?

Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses Need to Unite

What can a mental health advocate do to help people with mental illnesses?

What is required to be a Mental Health Care Advocate?

Encouragement from a Political Mental Health Advocate and News Channel

Mental Health Awareness Day & Thanks to Some Governors

Appeal to the media and politicians: Does anyone care that it is Mental Illness Awareness Week in America?

Major Overhaul Needed Re: Mental Health System

 


March Madness: Basketball vs Candidates

Presidential_March_MadnessCOLORdailiKosMarch Madness usually refers to college football. I think this year it will refer to the madness   of how the candidates can’t prove what they stand for and the campaigns all rely on mudslinging. arch Madness usually refers to college football. I think this year it will refer to the madness   of how the candidates can’t prove what they stand for and the campaigns all rely on mudslinging.

For the most part, the colleges get along when playing basketball and most of them play with good sportsmanship. Very rarely do you see them attacking them about their beliefs, religion, and character. In fact, if they were to openly do that, they would not be able to play.

However, our candidates are allowed to do anything they want without consequences. Well, of course there are consequences. Just like a college team can lose, a candidate can lose an election.

It is time to start rallying around the team you want to support and the one you think can win the championship. Just like basketball, it is time to start seriously consider who you want to win.  Many times the teams you have chosen to win the championship are not included in your brackets. However, that point  you still need to cheer for someone.  You might not have the two candidates to choose from when it comes to the general election, but you better start facing it, it might not be who you want.

If that is the case, you need to put all the crap that they will be slinging at each other and choose the candidate who can best help America the best. In order to pick one, you must know where they stand on certain issues and what they are going to do about them.  Clinton likes to promise everything and say she will do better than the Republicans no matter what. However, she has not come up with a valid plan as to how she will do it.  Trump likes to point out all the things that are wrong with America, but offers very little ideas of how will “Make America Great Again” It is wishful thinking that things are just going to get better when we have a new person in the White House.

As voters, we need to make a decision not based on who can call the other person the most names or point out all the things their opponent has done wrong. We need to make a choice as to who we think will run the country like we would want them to.  We should want proof that they care about certain issues and have devised a plan to fix the problems that face America.

One such issue is the mental health issue.  I pose this question to all the candidates: What will you do to help with the mental health system?  Will you at least talk about it so that the people with mental illnesses don’t feel discriminated and forgotten? Will you promise to do something about the stigma, the overcrowding of hospitals, the lack of quality care, the mistreatment of psychiatric patients, the homeless who end up there because they can’t get adequate care for their mental illness, and stop having revolving doors in psychiatric wards and prisons.  Prove to 25% of your voters that you do care.  We are Americans and we will vote and we could just make a difference as to if you win or not.

Did you miss the debate? Mental Illness Was Not Discussed

Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

Mental Health Should be a Priority

40 Million Voters Ignored

Why June 3rd Is an Important Day in the US, Who is Invited, and What is the Agenda?

Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses Need to Unite

What can a mental health advocate do to help people with mental illnesses?

What is required to be a Mental Health Care Advocate?

Encouragement from a Political Mental Health Advocate and News Channel

Mental Health Awareness Day & Thanks to Some Governors

Appeal to the media and politicians: Does anyone care that it is Mental Illness Awareness Week in America?

Major Overhaul Needed Re: Mental Health System

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Did you miss the debate? Here’s What Happened

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I have to admit that I did not watch the debate even though I had planned to. I did read the recaps this morning.  It is sad that it seemed more like an entertaining piece where thy pretty much attacked each other and not much was talked about the issues.

Once again, Americans don’t have much to base their decisions on other than who can be the one with the best character or worse in the case of some others I won’t mention.

I don’t know how any American can vote in the primaries not knowing much about how the candidates stand on most issues.

I have not voted yet as my state has not had its primaries yet. However, I hope to vote on the person who I know is going to actually “Make America Great Again’  I am not using that quote because I support or don’t support Trump. I am saying that is what needs to happen and I will vote for the person who I am convinced will make America great again. By the way, I am registered independent and therefore will not reveal who I am leaning towards voting for because that is not the point.

If you have read any of my recent blogs that I have shared on Twitter, Facebook making sure that I have tagged all the #election2016 hashtags. I also tweeted to all the media outlets that I could think of and all the candidates. I have had no response from any of them. I do have to say I have had responses from others and many retweets and likes and comments. However, the people who need to hear my points are either ignoring them or not getting them. I really think I, along with other people like me,  are being ignored and that just emphasizes my earlier point. They don’t want to talk about about the issues.

I have written to all candidates via their websites. I have not heard anything. I would be willing to bet that they do respond to most of the other emails they receive. If they don’t then they should not be president in my opinion.  To not listen to the voters is incompetent and frankly should be grounds for impeachment.  They would not be doing their jobs and with any other job, they would get fired if they weren’t doing it.  A good president would not just listen to the “people by the people” they would have good relationships with the Senators and Congressman in order to hear what the people want.

I now have made my points about what I think is wrong with the debates and what I am looking for in a president. As many of you know if you read my blogs, the next part will me getting on my soap box.  I read the article by the New York Times entitled “What you missed in the debate.”  Well, although I did not watch the debate, I would be willing to bet that they did not talk about mental illness or what they would do about the failing mental health system that affects EVERY AMERICAN.  I am not just talking about the mentally ill or their families. I am talking about all those who are affected or witness the horrible crimes by someone who has a mental illness.

Yes, national security is important and balancing the budget are important among many other things. However, something that I have yet to hear addressed in any large capacity is the failing mental health system and what they are going to do about it.

Trump wants to send illegal immigrants back and secure the borders by building a wall. Well, I think he along with probably most of the other candidates would be happy if we could send all the mentally ill to their own island. By not talking about it is not going to make that happen. Addressing the problem with what we are going to do about the mentally ill is just as important as any other topic if not more so.

ARE THEY EVER GOING TO TALK ABOUT IT?

My latest blog suggested things they could do and use to talk about. This is the one that I have tried sharing with all the candidates and media with no response.  If they don’t start listening to the mentally ill and the people who work and love the mentally ill  and do something and in the times before the election PROVE THEY ARE GOING TO DO SOMETHING and WHAT, then the problem will just keep growing and more tragedies will stop occurring, more people with mental illness will be jailed and mistreated and homeless.

I hope that the VOICES of the MENTALLY ILL are heard in my lifetime.  However, at this rate, I am not sure if that things will improve much in my grandchilden’s lifetime.  In fact, it is scary to think what America would be like if nothing is done RIGHT NOW to beter the mental health system.

I will now get off my soap box. However, I hope that candidates will now get on their soapboxes and talk about mental illness. By not doing so, it could be losing 25% of the voters as 1 in 4 have a mental illness. It also would be contributing to the stigma because it would be proving that it is a taboo subject. It would also, most importantly, prove that they don’t care about the mentally ill and think we are low class citizens that should not have a say. Well, let me tell you, we do have a say.  We are LEGAL AMERICANS who will be voting.

 

 

 

 

 

 


Briefly Me by Scott Martin

Well here goes,  my first attempt at a blog!!

This is me , im Scott 32 , from Lincolnshire Uk , Married  , 2 kids , a chef .. And one other major thing in my life .. Bipolar Disorder…

What brings me writing this ??

  • Maybe im imspired by others
  • Maybe after being in a documentry, seeing positive feedback i want to share more of my so called bipolar life 
  • Or am i just turning manic ?

 Have i always had bipolar? Hmm dunno they says signs show from the ages of 18 -25 .. So if i said one of one of my earliest memories is that i flew down my stairs ,( i can actually visually see myself floating down the stairs now ) my wife laughs when i tell her it happened, perhaps she humours me , but i can tell you .. It happened!! .fullstopPychosis ? Well i dunno ..

Caused by trauma?? .. My childhood was good untill i was 9 , my older brother at 16 was hit by car that flung him into a bus that he was catching on a wet night after his shift had finished. This had amassive effect on my life , not only did i loose my brother , but also nothing has ever been the same since. My family had depression written all over them, i can remember thinking then it should of been me , at one point i thought i was him or was that down to me acting like him , thinking about him to much , or wearing his clothes to try  and be him .. I dunno im rambling but guess i had a trauma

I guess the real signs of bipolar disorder came when i met my beautiful wife , my highs and lows when i think about them now was there , we had 4 houses in just over 3 years , i ran up so much debt with taking out cards thinking i could get away with not paying them , nothing was ever right, i had many moments of being horrible to my wife , i just couldnt find a way to control my thoughts which led to the only way for me to release them was to be  nasty and irritable i guess. Problem then i would sink into depression , laying on the settee while the world , my children grew .., but my marriage was failing ..

I think i have this bipolar thing i said .. It must of been 3am in the morning when i woke my wife , this was back in 2009, the whole stacy slater bipolar eastenders storyline had been on, i sat going through the symptons and guess there and then diagnosed myself.

4 years passed.. I didnt do anything about my new discovery of bipolar disorder , infact i was in denial , in them years we once again moved , i had bought cars in middle of the night , i started to believe i could draw the dead, like a spirtual artist , i was still having highs and lows but more extreame. I did try medication , anti depressants from my gp but no referal , i was a mess.

Jan 2013 .. A breakthrough came after my ever supportive wife came with me to my GP , i got referred , with  cyclothymia being mentioned as a reason for moods
I didnt really recongise myself i was 17 stone plus , unhappy but new that this referal was key , 2 trips over a period of 3 months to the people of ill brains , mood charts and conversations  , i was given the diagnosis of Bipolar 2 Disorder with further assements.

 

May 2015 .. So my diagnosis had been well over a year well 2 , in Jan that year  , i thought i was well , i had tried medication, they made me gain weight , made me feel numb , i decided to stop taking medication, self help and manage bipolar myself , even discharging myself from psychiatric care , 5 months later a new women came into my life

Annie Lennox .. I was stupid not to reconise a manic episode, but to me i was well / ish .. When i go high i control rapid thoughts via music , for some reason i fount my love for annie, she was there to block my thoughts and for the first time i had not knowing developed pychosis type symptons , the more i listened continuously to her songs i new i had been chosen, the lyrics , the videos , the way she looked at the camaras in the videos was for me it all came in place for I was not scott , well i was but not in 2015 , i was meant to be in the 80’s living my life , if i went in shops her music would be on , it was just her sign to show she was with me , at work on the radio again with me, after a good few weeks i decided to tell my wife about my discovery

Back to the mental health unit , my wife new i had became unwell , my boss got told and i was signed off work, thinking back now i was a danger to myself , and should of perhaps been sectioned or at least gone in voluntary  , thankfully  like a jigsaw my wife pieced me back together , but also said to me you need medication or find away for it to not happen again , she was frightend i was still high , but it hit home

The time off work  i managed to get myself down a few levels , i had a new appoinment back in place to discuss medications , i also fount myself being given the chance to take part of a follow up stephen fry life of a manic depressive documentry , i owned the first one , it helped me and my wife so much and being part of the new one was very important to me , if my story gave comfort or awareness to one person it would make me feel happy

The filming soon  came around and at the time i had chosen lithium as my choose of medication to control me. Still with the diagnosis of Bipolar 2 , after blood tests i began my lithuum , starting on 400mg i started to feel a lot better , my mind felt clear , no zombie feelings , a month later i had it increased to 800mg as the levels were not quite high enough to work as it should. The 2nd part of filming had finished , being more well i new i had done the right thing in trying to end the stigma of bipolar, the producers , filmcrew was such nice people.

Present Day .. Im now on 1200mg of lithium daily , the documentry has been aired and the supportive feedback blew me away being on tv was very surreal  , at this moment i feel really high and have been told to stay off work for 3 days to try and get rest in , i still believe in lithium , but one thing i am now passionate about making mental health more aware , deciding to write daily mood blog i feel will help me and hopfully give others comfort too.

 

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Guest Post: Fear to Love by Belinda

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From as far back as I can remember the terms anorexic, depressed, anxious, and addicted were terms I carried like a noose around my neck – stifling me, preventing me from living a ‘normal’ happy life and leaving a trail of painful memories.

I was diagnosed with anorexia at twelve years old. By fourteen I was diagnosed with clinical depression and had also started drinking. By seventeen my doctor told me I was going to die if I carried on drinking the way I was. I managed to keep the drinking somewhat under control until I was twenty three, coupled with Aropax, but the depression was too much to bear and two months after my twenty third birthday I tried to end my life.

I failed – and spent the next thirteen years trying to overcome underlying depression coupled with anxiety. I worked with counsellors, psychiatrists and therapists. I read every self help book I could find, and I managed to reach a space where I could live ‘normally’ but I still lived in an inner world of pain and unhappiness. I refused to go back onto medication, and I took herbal supplements which helped. These were Kava Kava and St Johns Wort. I also used Bach Flower Remedies which were very helpful.

Then in 2014 I immigrated to the UK. The big move, coupled with other unforeseen events saw me plummet back into a world of panic attacks, deep depression and an endless sense of hopelessness.

I knew something had to change, and so what I did was I put pen to paper and I wrote my story. It was the most incredible journey I have ever been on. As I wrote I was literally taken back to early childhood in my mind and I saw clearly the core beliefs I had set in childhood and how they had mapped the path I walked from there.

When I got towards the last part of the book I started working with a coach who introduced me to something called the 3 Principles – a paradigm that points to the true nature of how our reality is created by our thinking. The more I learnt and studied these principles, which are mind, consciousness and thought, the more I started to see my life and the labels I had in a completely different way. I began to heal. Not just in a superficial way, but on a deep level. I also began to see that although I had suffered severe depression and other mental disorders there was always a part of me that was not broken. That realisation was life changing for me.

For nearly thirty years I had believed I was not normal, that I was broken, that I was ‘ill’ mentally and that it was something I had to live with forever.

The 3 principles showed me a new way of seeing myself, my illness, and my external world.

I still get depressed, I still get anxious, but now I can see where the feelings are coming from and I don’t get so caught up in them.

I see my mind, my thinking and my feelings like the weather. Sometimes the sky is clear and I have happy thoughts. But sometimes there is a frightening storm and my inner world is very dark. But I remember that it is only a storm, and that it will pass, and soon enough the dark thoughts leave and I feel happy again. Its only if I see the thoughts as ‘me’ that I get stuck.

I finished my book, and I published my story to give hope to others. If you would like to read it, or get the first few chapters, please visit http://belindabennetts.co.uk/fear-love/ and go to the bottom of the page.

Sending you so much love on your journey,

Belinda


Candidates-Do you care about the 25% of Americans who have a mental Illness? PROVE IT!

prove itMost of the candidates have been dodging questions about the problem of mental illness in America. Some will bring it up when talking about gun control by saying things like we need to fix the mental health system or we need to help guns out of the mentally ill.

Well, when is the question going to be asked, “WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT THE PROBLEM FACING AMERICA IN REGARDS TO THE MENTAL HEALTH SYSTEM?”

Donald Trump is going to build a wall to keep illegal immigrants out and send the people here illegally back to where they came from.  Well, Donald Trump, you can’t keep the mentally ill from entering the United States because many of us are already here legally.  You can’t send us back either. Where would you send us?

The mental health facilities are so overcrowded that people can’t get the help they need.

This is just one problem that America needs to solve.  People are too embarrassed to get help because politicians and the media contribute to the stigma that prevents people from getting the help.  People are not educated as to what signs to look for and where to go to get help.  One in four people in America have a mental illness- that means that everyone most likely at least knows someone who has a mental illness.

So, what are you going to do Donald Trump? Hillary Clinton?  Sanders?  Rubio? Cruz? Kasich? Carson?

I think the ppl who have mental illnesses, their families, and anyone who has been affected by a mental illness due to tragedy deserve a right to know.

I can give you some answers since you can’t seem to come up with any of your own. At least if you have, you have not shared them.

  1. Ask the mentally ill and their families what is lacking and suggest what could help
  2. Ask the employees at mental health facilities what they see as problems and see how they would fix it
  3. Consider bills that are in Congress right now
  4. Go visit psychiatric hospitals and see how awful most of them are. The patients are being treated worse than animals and not getting the care they need.
  5. Visit the prisons and see how many people who have a mental illness are there instead of a psychiatric facility
  6. Stop the revolving door for prisons and hospitals by having inexpensive if not free care after someone leaves
  7. Finance things like Medical First Aid, Peer Support Specialists, NAMI, DBSA, and Mental Health Association instead of having them rely on donations
  8. Ask other countries what they are doing

You can’t just throw money at the problem.  You can’t keep dodging questions, you definitely should not add to the stigma like I have heard some of you do.  Also, by not talking about it does not give the 25% of Americans who have a mental illness respecdt.

The topic of mental health deserves so much more than any candidate or media outlet gives it.

I suggest you:

  • Investigate
  • Ask for solutions from people who are in the trenches
  • Do SOMETHING! Talk about SOLUTIONS
  • PROMISE that you have things you are going to do to help the mental health system within your first 100 days in office.

Movies & TV Shows with Bipolar Disorder Characters

moviesThese movies and television shows are not in any particular order.  Some are fictional and other movies are more factual including some biographies. 

Some of them do a better job of depicting someone who struggles with bipolar disorder. 

  • Touched with Fire:  Two poets who have bipolar disorder meet in a psychiatric hospital and fall in love. Ref
  • Infinitely Bipolar Bear: Cameron takes care of his two  daughters while his wife attends graduate school out of town.
  • Silver Linings Playbook: Pat has bipolar disorder and has moved in with his parents after he is discharged from a psychiatric hospital.
  • Mr. Jones: Mr. Jones has bipolar disorder. During one of his manic episodes he jumps up on stage during a concert and ends up being arrested.  He also struggles with suicidal depression. Ref
  • The Hours: Virginia, who has experienced several nervous breakdowns and suffers from bipolar disorder, feels trapped in her home, intimidated by servants and constantly under the eye of her husband who has begun a publishing business, Hogarth Press, at home to stay close to her. Ref
  • Shameless: Ian, like his mom Monica, has been diagnosed with BIPOLAR DISORDER and  he currently refuses to visit the doctor and does not believe he needs to take medication. For these reasons his behavior has been erratic and out of control, worrying his family. Ref Ref
  • Michael Clayton Arthur is the lead attorney in a class-action case.  His struggle with bipolar disorder makes things harder for his colleague, Michael, as they deal with the case. Ref
  • Call Me Anna Patty Duke plays herself in this movie.  Growing up she struggled with bipolar disorder, but was not diagnosed until 1982.  Patty Duke’s Biography
  • My Friend Paul: Paul is diagnosed in prison with bipolar disorder.  After he is released, he moves in his friend and filmmaker Jonathan. However, Paul’s manic rantings threaten the filmmaker’s own equilibrium and  he begs Paul to return to the psychiatric hospital. Ref
  • The Informant! Struggling with bipolar disorder, Mark confesses to the FBI that he and his company are doing illegal business. The stresses of having to wear a wire and organizing surveillance cause his meltdown.
  • The Flying Scotsman: This story is based on Graeme Obree, an amateur cyclist, who struggles with crippling bipolar disorder.
  • In the Best Interest of the Children A woman struggling with bipolar disorder while raising her five children eventually leads to the children being taken away from her.
  • Shine Biography about pianist David Helfgott who had bipolar disorder and spent years in mental institutions.  Ref 
  • Surviving Family As Terry struggles to rebuild her relationship with her older sister, she learns that her niece has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Her aunt helps her  begin to come to terms with the truth behind her mother’s life and death, and her father’s alcoholism. Ref
  • Sweethearts Arliss meets Jasmine on a blind date at a coffee house, but it turns out Jasmine has bipolar disorder and is  carrying a gun contemplating suicide.
  • Black Box (tv series)Catherine Black  is a famous neurologist who secretly has bipolar disorder  and the only person who knows is her psychiatrist who has been a maternal figure for Catherine  since her mother, who also suffered from bipolar disorder, committed suicide. Ref
  • Homeland  (tv series) Carrie is a CIA officer who, like her father, struggles with  bipolar disorder. Her dad also has bipolar disorder.  Although her family knows, she is able to keep her illness a secret from others for a long time during the season.
  • Empire (tv series) Andre, the oldest of the the Lyon family has bipolar disorder. He’s power hungry and hopes to run the empire some day. Leah, Dwight’s deceased mother, also had bipolar disorder Ref
  • The Big C (tv series)  Sean, Cathy’s brother, suffers from bipolar disorder starts and taking medications because he wants to be more stable for his unborn child.  He was homeless and refused treatment up until then. Ref
  • ER (tv series) Abby has a mother with bipolar disorder who comes and lives with her.
  • Law and Order SVU  (tv series) Elliot’s mother has bipolar disorder and he finds out his daughter has it too when she has a manic phase and ends up prison.
  • Six Feet Under (tv series)  Billy, Brenda’s brother, has bipolar disorder
  • Shutter Island Marshalls, while investigating  a psychiatric hospital come  across Daniels who might have killed his bipolar disorder wife after she supposedly killed their three children. Ref
  • Next To Normal a mother struggles with  bipolar disorder and attempts to not let it affect her family Ref
  • Manic  Chad has bipolar disorder and forms a friendship with Lyle while in a psychiatric facility. The two make plans to go to Amsterdam with the money from Chad’s trust fund.

Below are other movies that are believed to be about bipolar disorder. However, the viewer has to come to that conclusion on their own based on the plot of the movie and its characters.

A Fine Madness

Blue Sky

Cobb

Splendor in the Grass 

Rocks in My Pockets 

Prozac Nation

Tamil Films: Aarohanam and 3