Daily Archives: January 31, 2018

Low Motivation

I am trying to overcome my low motivation levels.  But I’m not sure I’m succeeding.  I need to go to the grocery store and i need to go to the pharmacy for medication.  I have so far gotten dressed and done my makeup in order to go do that.  i need to actually get out of the house though, and that seems to be the sticking point.

I need to work on laundry and have some–I sorted Bob’s socks.  But I need to do his weekly laundry and sort out mine.  ANd I am having so much trouble doing that.  I just want to curl up in the bed and sleep.

It doesn’t feel like depression–it feels like boredom.  i have always hated the house stuff but always did it because it has to be done.  That is not enough motivation any more.  I’m not  even writing much beyond this blog and school assignments because I just don’t feel like it.  I don’t have any good ideas to work on.

ANd I am having a very hard time doing  the weekly school assignments because I just don’t feel like it. I wonder if I’m going to have the motivation to do another three years of this.

I just don’t know what to do.  I suppose I will stop typing first and go run my errands.  Please pray for me.



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Today, January 31, 2018, is the Annual “Bell Let’s Talk” Day to bring awareness to Mental Health issues. Bell Canada, a major communications company in our country started this event to bring awareness and raise money for a cause that is very dear to my heart – Mental Illness. They pay 5 cents for every …

Day 5

Today is the last day I will be taking the 2mg of Rexulti, tomorrow I start on the 1mg. I’ve had that almost headache feeling still but no more anxiety than normal. Nothing I can’t handle honestly. I mean I don’t really get all that anxious anymore unless I have to leave the house. Which is something I need to work on, but like I said the whole flu thing is keeping me inside and away from people for now. I really don’t want it.

In a few days I will have weed in the house again, I’m looking forward to that nice mellow buzz and am hoping it won’t change the way my antidepressants are working.  I don’t have a choice of what kind to get as pickings are slim.  I’m going to try and not be stoned every single day though. I think that will make a huge difference. I need to be alert to look after the puppy.

Speaking of the puppy, have I mentioned how thrilled I am that she is pad trained already. It’s been too cold outside for a little 3 pound pup.  She has left some bruises on me with her teething though, thankfully she is getting less nippy.

Well that’s it for today, back to Criminal Minds.