We think of sensory Issues, or at least I do, as something that people who aren’t me don’t have. I have always known that certain noises absolutely drive me batty but I always just thought that was me. My middle son has some pretty major sensory Issues, even at 13, he doesn’t like certain textures, or the way something’s look. I’m not sure outside of food what else effects him. But I know he can only handle so much business or having people around and talking. As I watch him it’s like he shuts down and screams leave me alone. But he isn’t doing it to be mean. He’s doing it because it’s what he needs to function.
As I have watched him I see some of those same things in me. I am extremely social by nature but when I need/want to be left alone there’s not much anyone can do to change it. Loud sounds, mostly beeping noises drive me crazy. Like to the point where if I have to listen to it very long I get very cranky And have in the past accidentally taken it out on others. That’s when I learned I have to leave the situation. Trying to force myself to let it go or not listen doesn’t work at all. I only manage to hurt myself and often the people around me. But I have realized it isn’t just sounds its other things as well.
As I got into bed last night I realized that I have to have things a certain way or a don’t sleep right. Like I probably have 10 pillows on my side of the bed. My husband could care less about a sheet but when I don’t have one my bed feels funny. Can’t explain it, it just does. Also, I have to have a mostly cold room year round, so that I can use blankets. I think it’s probably a safety mechanism because of the weight of the blankets. Which brings me to the comforter. I currently have 3 on my bed because 2 of them are much to thin. The third one is a little better but added to the other 2 it is the perfect weight. I know I’m a little out there. Anyway, it hit me that that’s a sensory thing. I am quite certain there are probably a thousand things on my list that other people don’t do. While I know that each person is different I also know that there is in fact a statistical “normal” and I also know that I have pretty much never done anything normal. Lol
I have noticed that some of these issues others have as well. I think I have determined that for those of us that are bipolar it’s not just a little irritation it’s absolutely something that drives us crazy. Nobody likes to have flies land on them. But I would seriously rip my hair out if I was ever attacked by something that flies. My skin is soooo sensitive to everything but to bugs specificly. People say you can’t feel mosquitoes but I can. I feel a little pinch when they have sucked to much. And many times I can feel them land on me. It’s annoying. I would definitely trade that if I could.
I will continue to be aware and seeehat my sensory Issues are. It’s just possible that fixing or preventing them as much as possible could help me stay even more stable. Be blessed today friends!! And please if you pray send a prayer up for a friend of mine that really needs strength and love right now.