Originally posted on Dream Big, Dream Often:
Here’s how to blog network: Featured Bloggers for April 20, 2016! (click Bloggers to view yesterday’s post) In the Arena ? In Between Moderation ? Being Lydia ? Tom Slatin ? Harsh Reality…
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Originally posted on Dream Big, Dream Often:
Here’s how to blog network: Featured Bloggers for April 20, 2016! (click Bloggers to view yesterday’s post) In the Arena ? In Between Moderation ? Being Lydia ? Tom Slatin ? Harsh Reality…
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Pictures are all taken in QoB’s backyard. After a hard day yesterday, I knew I needed to take a time-out and appreciate the world around me. Along with an excellent mom-visit, I was able to enjoy sitting outside in her backyard oasis:
Before I know it, this whole area will be in bloom. My mom can make anything grow, and has the patience and knowledge and creativity to make a beautiful space out of anything. I can’t wait to post pictures again in just a few weeks.
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Pictures are all taken in QoB’s backyard. After a hard day yesterday, I knew I needed to take a time-out and appreciate the world around me. Along with an excellent mom-visit, I was able to enjoy sitting outside in her backyard oasis:
Before I know it, this whole area will be in bloom. My mom can make anything grow, and has the patience and knowledge and creativity to make a beautiful space out of anything. I can’t wait to post pictures again in just a few weeks.
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I cancelled it for the most part. I called it off with my mom in law because she has been really negative lately and I need positivity around me when I am not feeling well.
I’ve played some games today just a bit at a time and am working on another painting. I should post some pics of some of my more recent paintings. I like to hear what people think and I know I am no artist so I don’t mind if people don’t like it.
I’ve been stressing about my shrink appt next week, then I finally said to myself.”Hey, it’s over a week, chill a little.”
I need to seriously chill and shut my brain up. It is constant and it is daunting.
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I have no idea why but today my panxiety is in high gear. Paranoia, anxiety, crawling skin, twisted stomach…Sense of foreboding…
I took a Xanax.
It’s done fuck all.
I feel like I have that target on me and everyone is packing a gun.
Adding to it is the fact that the power company is installing new meters and they’ve got my yard full of multi colored flags and spray paint, warning me they’re coming…but I don’t know when. I hate knocks on the door. I hate strange people around my safe place. It’s necessary, I have no choice, but it doesn’t lessen the emotions.
Or the physical issues.
Maybe my mood is down which makes me vulnerable to the paranoia and anxiety. Maybe it’s because my kid accused me of abuse when I brushed her hair this morning and the brush got tangled in the rats. Maybe it’s because I had another rough night of sporadic sleep (this time due to my allergies).
I don’t know much of anything except no matter how much the psych professionals downplay it all…Living this way sucks. Anxiety is not funny, it is not mild, it is not something you “shake off”.
That is all.
We’ve all got “the crud”–runny nose, coughing, sore throat. I’m taking my middle one to the doctor since she sounds the worst out of all of us. Mine is pretty minor at this point so I am going to just let it heal itself.
I have worked over and worked over my final essay and am so tempted to turn it in. But I keep tossing one thing over in my mind that happened this last hospitalization that I’m wondering if I want to include it. It’s atypical of how St. D. usually operates, and it’s never happened to me anywhere else. I was the butt of a practical joke on the part of one of the techs this time around. He was just teasing, but I don’t think it will go over that way if I tell it. I think he will sound cruel and uncaring. And it wasn’t a terrible thing, it was just messing with me and seeing what I would say. I just don’t know.
Anyway. We will see how it turns out. Hope everyone has a good rest of the week.
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We’ve all got “the crud”–runny nose, coughing, sore throat. I’m taking my middle one to the doctor since she sounds the worst out of all of us. Mine is pretty minor at this point so I am going to just let it heal itself.
I have worked over and worked over my final essay and am so tempted to turn it in. But I keep tossing one thing over in my mind that happened this last hospitalization that I’m wondering if I want to include it. It’s atypical of how St. D. usually operates, and it’s never happened to me anywhere else. I was the butt of a practical joke on the part of one of the techs this time around. He was just teasing, but I don’t think it will go over that way if I tell it. I think he will sound cruel and uncaring. And it wasn’t a terrible thing, it was just messing with me and seeing what I would say. I just don’t know.
Anyway. We will see how it turns out. Hope everyone has a good rest of the week.
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