I’m feeling slightly better today. I don’t know if it’s real though. I did my normal Saturday wake n bake.
I feel less heavy though. It feels like I have been given a little room to breath. Just a little but the air is wonderful. It gives me some hope that I can slide back to the other side of the see-saw.
I woke up and started painting almost right away. I have things in my brain that need to come out apparently. Oh it would be so lovely if I could have a hypo-manic episode, I could get so much shit done. Right now I’m ignoring that stuff and waiting until I feel better to do anything about it. Unless I get motivated.
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Durango, CO (10:00 AM) to Lamar, CO (4:45PM). 351 miles.
Notables: Van Morrison’s Keep it Simple (thank you, Robert)
Jim Butcher’s Harry Dresden novel Small Favor (read by James Marsters, for all you Buffy fans)
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Meeting my bloggy friend, Robert, was like coming home. None of the emotional crap I wrestled last night took that away. He was the thoughtful, mindful, funny, articulate man I knew from his blog and mine. His voice sounded exactly as I imagined, his clear gaze looked and saw.
We sat at Durango Coffee Company for about an hour, shedding the distance of friends who only know each other through letters. We asked big questions and dove deep for the answers. And we laughed.
Robert wanted me to have some Van Morrison for the rest of my trip (I love how music-people know when you need a piece of music). We strolled down to the music store, still talking, but we were too early. And I needed to be on my way. So, we took a detour to his truck where he pulled out Keep it Simple from his CD player and handed it over.
I was so enthralled, I forgot to have a barista take our picture. Crap. Next time. Because there will be a next time.
The rest of the day took me through the Colorado Rockies, through lots of little burgs, and into a scape that looked almost like home. Rock still juts out of Eastern Colorado’s skin, but the grass and trees are turning Prairie. Soon all that tectonic majesty will be behind me and the sea of fields will take over.
Tonight, I get to cook my Ramen noodles in a sweet, shabby-chic B&B. Lace curtains, antique furniture, quilt on the bed, and a retro bathroom all just for me. There’s a house cat on the porch. What Traveling Girl could ask for more?
Durango, CO (10:00 AM) to Lamar, CO (4:45PM). 351 miles.
Notables: Van Morrison’s Keep it Simple (thank you, Robert)
Jim Butcher’s Harry Dresden novel Small Favors (read by James Marsters, for all you Buffy fans)
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Meeting my bloggy friend, Robert, was like coming home. None of the emotional crap I wrestled last night took that away. He was the thoughtful, mindful, funny, articulate man I knew from his blog and mine. His voice sounded exactly as I imagined, his clear gaze looked and saw.
We sat at Durango Coffee Company for about an hour, shedding the distance of friends who only know each other through letters. We asked big questions and dove deep for the answers. And we laughed.
Robert wanted me to have some Van Morrison for the rest of my trip (I love how music-people know when you need a piece of music). We strolled down to the music store, still talking, but we were too early. And I needed to be on my way. So, we took a detour to his truck where he pulled out Keep it Simple from his CD player and handed it over.
I was so enthralled, I forgot to have a barista take our picture. Crap. Next time. Because there will be a next time.
The rest of the day took me through the Colorado Rockies, through lots of little burgs, and into a scape that looked almost like home. Rock still juts out of Eastern Colorado’s skin, but the grass and trees are turning Prairie. Soon all that tectonic majesty will be behind me and the sea of fields will take over.
Tonight, I get to cook my Ramen noodles in a sweet, shabby-chic B&B. Lace curtains, antique furniture, quilt on the bed, and a retro bathroom all just for me. There’s a house cat on the porch. What Traveling Girl could ask for more?
In early 2015, after quitting my overwhelming warehouse job and being prompted by both Sadie and Sierra, I applied for disability. I was immediately rejected due to not having enough work credits. I needed to work 6 more months to become eligible. A year later I had worked enough in my occasional job at the […]
I realize I haven’t been sick all that long or I’ve been sick for a very long time. It’s confusing. I have intestinal issues but I have IBS plus sometimes it just acts up when I am stressed. I find it very tiring non the less.
I’m trying to find a way out of the circle I’ve made for myself. Working on a painting. Hopefully that will give me a little boost when it’s done. Just trying to give myself a positive thing to do every day, even if it’s just a little.
I’m feeling less depressed today than I did yesterday though, which makes me semi-smile.
I realize I haven’t been sick all that long or I’ve been sick for a very long time. It’s confusing. I have intestinal issues but I have IBS plus sometimes it just acts up when I am stressed. I find it very tiring non the less.
I’m trying to find a way out of the circle I’ve made for myself. Working on a painting. Hopefully that will give me a little boost when it’s done. Just trying to give myself a positive thing to do every day, even if it’s just a little.
I’m feeling less depressed today than I did yesterday though, which makes me semi-smile.
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