please understand that this is not a post to elicit pity, there are people out there that feel the same way, I want them to know they’re not alone
You live in an isolated area.
You have no friends,
It’s difficult to make new ones because…
You no longer have a working brain,
Your medications make you stupid,
You can’t hold down a job,
You can’t concentrate long enough for a hobby,
There are no opportunities nearby,
No opportunities for “people like you.”
Imagine you’re used to seeing your grandchildren at least once a week,
Now decrease that to once a year, if you’re lucky.
Sometimes I feel like a foreigner.
I’m not from this world.
I don’t fit, believe me, I’ve tried.
And I’m tired.
I’ve been fighting this illness for 50+ years.
I’ve been on the medication merry-go-round for 30+ years.
I’m tired enough that it would be so easy to just lay down to sleep
And not wake up.