Since my obsessive research convinces me that a support system/treatment partner is vital, I decided to open up to a friend (I suppose) who is nearby and who gets all up in muh business, even though I do not trust her. I told her about support being blah blah blah and to her credit, she said, but you need to learn not to shut people out. Totally fair.
So the following day I was droning on about it all to her and at some point I said, I’ve just got to get my head round it, I won’t always talk to obsessively about it. She said, jeez I hope so!
Eh well. All the info out there by people who love people with bipolar is all about coping with the person. It’s fucking depressing. I just don’t have anyone nearby.