“I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.”
Sometimes I want to give up on this blog. I think to myself, what’s the point? What difference am I making? A blog about how I feel on good days, on bad days, on horrible days…who cares? And what wisdom could I possibly pass on to anyone when I remain so confused about my own care? But, I occasionally receive private emails telling me that something I wrote really hit home for someone. Suddenly they don’t feel as alone. And bingo, there’s my purpose. Because, sure, this blog isn’t for everyone. There are millions of sites out there with more useful information, more grains of wisdom, more skillful wording than my worn out brain can articulate. But sometimes someone gets me, and I get them, and that is a beautiful opportunity I don’t want to miss out on. Plus, it’s really great to have a place to vent about stuff.
A lot has happened since I first received my diagnosis in 2006. I got worse, I got better, I got worse again. Over and over and over again. Right now I am yo-yoing from here to there and back at an alarming speed, but that’s just par for the course. I don’t know if there will ever be a working combo when it comes to meds. I don’t know if I will ever reach a point where I feel well and recovered more than 10% of the time. But I sure do hope I keep the fight up. And I hope you all will too.
I decided to take the pledge this year via A Canvas of the Minds because I think it will help me remember how important this blog is. Even if it’s just important to one person. Even if that one person is me. I am excited to start reading some of the other blogs that are taking part in this project. There are so many of us! And that is absolutely wonderful 🙂
If you would like to participate, go to Blog for Mental Health 2014 for details. I hope you’ll join us!