Gain a Few, Lose a Few

(sigh) Another frustrating weigh in on Saturday.  I knew the scale was not going to be my friend.  It practically growled at me when I walked in the door.  I’d made a decision, beforehand, that I was not going to get weighed.  My tighter clothing told me it was not going to be pretty.  I decided I was going to skip the scale and just go to the Weight Watchers meeting only.  Once, I got there, I guess I lost my sanity for a moment because I hopped up on the scale.  I weighed 239 pounds, which was a 2.6 pound increase from the week before.  Fortunately, I haven’t gained every week.  As a matter of fact, I’ve been on more of a rollercoaster.  Gain 3 pounds one week, lose 1 pound the following week, then gain 2 pounds the next week, then lost 1…. you get the picture.  I’m still 64 pounds lighter than my maximum of 303 pounds, but at one point I was 90 pounds lighter.  I weighed 213.

One of the most frustrating effects of meds is the weight gain.  Mine shot up like a rocket.  Was it worth it?  I’d say yes.  At 303 pounds I could have died of a heart attack, but at least I had something to live for.  Before the meds I was at a lower weight, but was living a life not worth living.

If you are just beginning to receive treatment for a mood disorder.  Don’t worry too much.  Yes, it’s true that most people gain weight after getting on the meds, however, my gain was not typical.  I don’t know of anyone, that I’m aware of, who gained as much as I did.

The good thing is that I didn’t beat myself up over it.  I shrugged my shoulders and said, “I can live with that.  I thought it was going to be much worse.”  (I had one week that I actually gained 6 pounds.)

So another week has begun and it’s time, once again, to get serious about eating healthier foods and getting in some exercise.  I’ll let you know next week how it goes.



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