Daily Archives: October 18, 2012

Where Have I Been?

Dear Readers, I must apologize for my long silence.   I have been traveling, and have landed in the midst of a terrible mess which I must sort out before my mind will settle to write again.  Nothing life-threatening (I hope), yet completely disruptive of my normal chaotic “routine,” if it can be thus called.

I hope that things will settle down in a few days, and I will then be able to explain or at least summarize the past few weeks.

I also want to give you a “heads up” that I will be making some changes to my blog soon.  Things are becoming too scary writing under my own name.  There are circumstances that might become very traumatic if this blog is read by certain people.

Previously I have felt it important that I write openly rather than using a psuedonym, but those days are, I’m afraid, over.

In my next post I will fill you in on the pseudonym I choose, and after that I will make the switch.

Blessings to you all for good days and a good night’s sleep.

Copyright 2012 Soul Survivor all rights reserved

seroquel: batman’s little secret

i feel like i’m wearing an invisible suit of teflon.  bullets would just bounce off of me.  pain has been scraped out of my veins, squeezed through my pores, and fallen away.

i feel like i could actually have fun again.

still, i’m suspicious.  it feels artificial, and it is.  i wouldn’t feel this way without mother’s little helper.  that leaves me feeling conflicted.  i don’t like that i depend on medication to feel this way.  and given my year of wild fluctuations, i can’t help but wonder, how long will this last?

the good news is, seroquel is good at quashing those thoughts and feelings too.  i don’t dwell on them too long, and go on to more important things.

like fixing my jeep.

and playing with my animals.

and talking to friends.

and family.

taking care of my home.

and myself.

oh, and getting some work done too.  class of 2013 or bust!