So I had to run to the store and purchase a new Brita pitcher because I dropped ours today. I also needed to get some other things. No big deal.
I’m coming out of the store with my purchases, and there is a guy sitting on the bench out in front of the store. And what ran though my head? This: “Hey Mr. Man. Lets FUCK. I’m going to take you to my car, rip your clothes off and fuck your brains out!”
Ok, first of all, where the hell did that come from? He wasn’t even cute! And who am I to think he would even want to have anything to do with me like that? And then I think to myself… “Self, you haven’t had a thought like that in a long time!”
And It was like I was only thinking it and only thinking to do it, to just do it. Just to be…. bad I guess. Inappropriate. But what the hell? I mean really? I did used to have thoughts like that a lot. I never acted on them (with strangers….) but it just scares me sometimes what runs through my mind at the most odd times. I guess that is a BP thing? Or am I just fucking nuts and have something wrong with me? I mean, I am not even aroused or anything. It was just a total random thought.
Please tell me someone else has thought like this before?