this is what I feel like right now. I have taken 4 Ativan’s today, and could hear my seroquel calling my name. Yet, I resisted… I want to SLEEP! But I can’t. I am so fucking wound up. And I have been uber bitchy, but I’m just going to blame that on PMS.
I’ve got laundry going right now, and I’m jamming to the 80′s Alternative station on Slacker radio… Makes me wanna go to a club or something….
I had to put icy hot on my hand, because I’m having arthritic pain which just really sucks. I’m 40, not 400! I walked a mile and a half on the treadmill tonight and I really could have walked on and on… I know hypomania is creeping up, but I don’t want to see it. Because if I don’t look it in the face, it isn’t there, right?
It’s almost midnight, and it is 90*F out! Crazy shit!
I’ve got my meals planned out for the week. Just have to make my shopping list for tomorrow. I also entered a contest to go to Lollapalooza in Chicago… I hope I win because that would be so fucking awesome! I went in Dayton back in the 90′s and I saw Soundgarden, Violent Femmes, Metallica, and I don’t remember who else was there….
In Chicago, Black Sabbath is going to be there, Passion Pit; who I simply adore! FLORENCE AND THE MACHINE!!!! just to name a few… I’d drive that for free tickets and a free hotel room! Hell yeah!
I finally got the video uploaded, and now I’m just waiting for them to process it. It’s a pretty cheesy first video, I was nervous, and wow, I didn’t realize I had so many nervous ticks! But I promise the next one will be better. I will have notes to keep me on track.