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The Bipolar Made Me Do It…but the Shame is eating me alive

 

We’ve all done it

We all know it

We’ve all been there

We all hold something

maybe a bunch of somethings

head hanging

head shaking

OhMyGoding

WhatTheFucking

the Shame that is like an actual physical creature

the Shame that is like acid

burning you up inside

making you want to break glass windows

Shame that hurts

and

stupid

stupid

stupid

why why why

how?

HOW?

And it blows your mind that YOU were the person doing that

behaving that way

SAYING those things

embarrassed

 

and horrified

scared of yourself

of Bipolar

of the reality of what it can do

the extent to which it can take you from you

the way it can lead you blithely skipping into your own ruin

and that

is terrifying


Filed under: Bipolar Sucks, i love Mania Hates me, Sometimes we just feel All Bipolar Tagged: mania, putting ourselves down, sorry

The Bipolar Made Me Do It…but the Shame is eating me alive

 

We’ve all done it

We all know it

We’ve all been there

We all hold something

maybe a bunch of somethings

head hanging

head shaking

OhMyGoding

WhatTheFucking

the Shame that is like an actual physical creature

the Shame that is like acid

burning you up inside

making you want to break glass windows

Shame that hurts

and

stupid

stupid

stupid

why why why

how?

HOW?

And it blows your mind that YOU were the person doing that

behaving that way

SAYING those things

embarrassed

 

and horrified

scared of yourself

of Bipolar

of the reality of what it can do

the extent to which it can take you from you

the way it can lead you blithely skipping into your own ruin

and that

is terrifying


Filed under: Bipolar Sucks, i love Mania Hates me, Sometimes we just feel All Bipolar Tagged: mania, putting ourselves down, sorry