Author Archives: Oh Temp (BipolarUnemployedLost)

I Me Mine – The Beatles

This song really makes me think about I, Me, and… well.. MINE.

Isn’t that what everyone thinks about all the time? I think if you have a mental illness you think about yourself way more than others. This is because you always have to be “ahead of the game” when it comes to your illness. That is why they tell you to go help others or volunteer to get your mind off you… your mind.

Damn, all through the day… I me mine, I me mine, I me mine

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Spirituality and who??

Today I visited a family member that lives now lives in a senior citizen community, and I was talking to him about how I am feeling depressed about my life…

We somehow got onto the subject of spirituality. I told him that I am not spiritual at all. It kind of choked me up talking about it. Talking about NOT being spiritual always has made me feel on the verge of crying, but I never do…


Why do I feel like something is missing everyday? Could it be that I not doing what GOD tells me to do and that’s why I feel bad? Could it be that not being about to believe in anything has me falling deeply into shit? Could it be that I really don’t believe in anything humans say it right or wrong? I mean how do I know what is right for me in a spiritual sense??

What does spirituality do to the mentally illed??


…and where can I get some….

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For the Negative Minded People like me.


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You’re Just Like Me: John Doe

So, you have a Mental Illness?…Which One?

Bipolar 2, Complex PTSD

When you were diagnosed, what age where you? Where were you in your life?

The PTSD diagnosis happened when I was 20-ish, it altered to CPTSD about two decades later. Bipolar was diagnosed recently (mid 40s). Where was I? I’ve never been stable for long (geographically even), but I’m standing still now.

How do you cope/relax from your mental illness?

Strict medication compliance and very lovely and loving dogs. Taking things a day, hour, minute at a time.

What are 3 words that you would describe how your illness makes you feel?

I don’t know.

If you could talk to world leaders about mental illness, what would be the one thing you discuss?

Erasing words like ‘madness’ from any discussion of it. Maybe even a new word for mental. There’s enough genetic research and science around for the current stigma to be utterly unacceptable bullshit. Grrr!

What is some advice you would give someone who is fighting mental illness?

Take your meds!

How can we keep in touch with you? (blog, Facebook, Twitter)


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#mhsm chat Wed Sept 3rd Let’s Talk about Recovery!


Love this graphic and the transcript. Please take a moment to read and share. Share and read!

Originally posted on MHSM chat:

List of Stress Relief ActivitiesT-shirt inscribed with This is what RECOVERY looks like

What a great chat we had! Take a moment and read the transcript:

Upcoming Chats:

Sept 10th: Self-management for suicide prevention in bipolar, with host @unsuicide and guest @CREST_BD! Join us  Wed @ 8pm ET

Sept 17th : Mental Health & Nutrition with @MentalHealthFL! Join us Wed @ 8pm ET

Sept 24th: Lessons we can learn from suicide attempt survivors with @deseraestage! Join us Wed @ 8pm ET

Oct 1st: ADHD Awareness with @Jeff_Emmerson! Join us Wed @ 8pm ET ;

Oct 8th: Mental Illness Awareness Week with @MHSMChat (Cindy)

Oct 15th: Topic and chat leader to be determined

Oct 22nd: Topic to be determined with @giasison @nursefriendly @NatriceR co-hosting!

Oct 29th: No chat since this is th 5th Wed of the month

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Double Agent

I know people with mental illness have to act like double agents everyday, but lately I have been feeling more and more unknown to myself.

everyday I wake up not knowing who I am and what I might do today. This morning, I woke up and decided that I didn’t want to go to work, so I smoked, call my job, and went back to bed. I woke up 3 hours later really kicking myself in the ass for not going.

What is going on with me? Sometimes I’m looking out through eyes that might not be mines.

Am I still going through a rebellious period? Do I have nothing to work and strive for?

Has anyone felt this way? Is it my addiction or my mental illness?

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Trapped but back

Hello WordPress Family.
I am okay.

Thank you for the messages I have gotten about my absence. Everything is okay.

I haven’t been writing really because I have been trying to finally connect with my own life, which really hasn’t been working. I have been smoking incredibly too much, working, and then also moving out of one place into another.

I haven’t really felt connected to my mental illness side. My bipolar has been really reduced because of my job and medicine, which is great, but it sucks because I don’t feel like I can talk about something that I’m not suffering from at the moment, but that’s wrong. I started this blog to help myself but realize that I am helping more people than I know.

Thanks for helping me realize….so here to me…back in action..

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Robin Williams, Comedian and Actor, Dead at 63


Robin Williams was one of us. He will always be remembered. We love you.

Originally posted on TIME:

The Oscar-winning comedian and actor Robin Williams has died at 63, according to police in Marin County, Calif.

A statement from the assistant chief deputy coroner of Marin County announced on Monday that the Coroner Divisions of the Sheriff’s Office “suspects the death to be a suicide due to asphyxia, but a comprehensive investigation must be completed before a final determination is made.”

His publicist confirmed the news.

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Job ditching

I have come up with elaborate ways to get out of work when I hate it.

Today I used a way. Now I feel stupid.

My mind hates doing anything it doesn’t want to do. My mind hates to do anything but smoke, hang out, and feel blah all day.

I have become a lazy individual that starts and stops everything I do.

My mental state hasn’t gotten any better either. Smoking has made it feel sloppy, stupid, tired, and stiff.

This isn’t thee real me. This isn’t who I am suppose to be.

I’m suppose to be fine.

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The 4th of August

was my birthday. I am 28, and I still have no clue what in doing, where I’m going, and how to handle my life.

I feel much better today, and have been for a while, but there is this feeling like I am missing something…

I hope all is well with you.

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