Author Archives: Jess Melancholia

I Wanna Do Bad Things With You

To describe it as torture would be an understatement​. It’s mental anguish. That feeling. That worm that digs and digs into your skull, trying to make it’s way in. It’s taking over my brain again. I can feel it. Twisting and turning inside my head. It’s almost painful. I’m grinding my teeth just to distract … More I Wanna Do Bad Things With You


I literally just want to blow my fucking skull off my body. My head has been pounding. I feel sick. I hate taking pills. I fucking HATE men. And I just want to run away. Yes it’s about Mark. No he’s not gone. Fuck. My. Life.

“Say You’ll Remember Me” – Wildest Dreams (Taylor Swift)

Ready. Set. Sail! I’m not ready to really write about this yet but I had to get it off my chest and I don’t care what anyone thinks. Mark pretty much told me yesterday he couldn’t do it anymore. That he is done with fucking over my relationship with my husband. We talked for a … More “Say You’ll Remember Me” – Wildest Dreams (Taylor Swift)

March Update – Sex, Religion, & Bipolar

Ready. Set. Sail! Good afternoon everyone! I just wanted to post a quick update here to kinda go over what’s been going on in my head/life. I was going to post something here in February to address the previous post but I got what seemed to be a sort of stomach flu. It lasted for … More March Update – Sex, Religion, & Bipolar

Feeding The Fire: Third Degree Burns

Ready. Set. Sail! (Warning: Contains explicit sexual content. Reader discretion is advised.) If you haven’t read my previous entry, go ahead and do it right now so you’ll understand the context of this part of the story a little more. Don’t worry, I’ll wait… …(*Jeopardy theme song plays in the background*)… …. …. OK! We’re … More Feeding The Fire: Third Degree Burns

Feeding The Fire: Walking On Hot Coals

Ready. Set. Sail! So…here we are. I guess I have some explaining to do don’t I? I bet you’re wondering where in fuck’s name I’ve been. Well to be completely honest, I’ve been hiding. I’ve been hiding from myself. I’ve been hiding from you guys. I’ve been hiding from life in general. I decided last … More Feeding The Fire: Walking On Hot Coals

Guess Who’s Back?

Ready. Set. Sail! Good afternoon everyone! Jess is back! Risen from the Goddamn grave! Long time, no see. Oh man. I just want to apologize for dropping off the face of the planet. Things have been so damn crazy lately and I needed some time to sort through all of my thoughts. For those of … More Guess Who’s Back?

Feeding The Fire: Up In Flames

Ready. Set. Sail! So I’m here to say a few words. In truth, things have been a little rocky for me. I’ve been quiet these past few weeks…out of embarrassment really. I don’t know why I can’t just be open and honest with myself on my blog. It makes me nervous being so open. I … More Feeding The Fire: Up In Flames

Featured Blogger: Aidan O’Connell

Ready. Set. Sail! I want to apologize first off for this taking so long. It was a communication error on my part and I deeply regret not taking care of it sooner. I feel absolutely awful but I want to make sure that people out there understand that I stand committed to my promises. Sorry … More Featured Blogger: Aidan O’Connell

The Woman Of Your Dreams

Ready. Set. Sail! Happy Halloween my fellow ghostie-goos!! Nothing to report other than I’m still feeling great. Here is a little something for all you spooky peeps in case you decide you don’t want to go to bed tonight. Feel free to reblog and repost (there is no explicit content in this post) Hope you … More The Woman Of Your Dreams