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What To Do with Dry Mouth

I have so many side effects against my having dry mouth. My medications is the main reason but, so can my diabetes. Dry mouth is known as xerostomia and I can’t seem to stimulate the production of my saliva no matter what I do. My mouth can become so dry that I have developed sore cracks in the corners of my mouth. Other symptoms like dry tongue, dry throat, and fissures on my tongue are just some of the discomforts.  I can even become hoarse or unable to form my words because of how dry I’ve become.

I don’t suffer from cervical nerve damage or an autoimmune syndrome. Every healthcare professional has no solution for me except to use lozenges and drink fluids. Apparently my age has some type of correlation to the my aliment. That’s nothing that I haven’t tried already. I do use a mouth wash for dry mouth after brushing my teeth and that does seem to have a short term effect of my symptoms.
Good dental hygiene also gives some relief.

That’s about all I can do. I hope that when some of my illnesses recover, such as diabetes and hypertention, I am able to relieve some of this discomfort. It is a frustrating discomfort but one I am willing to endure rather than stopping my psych meds.

What To Do with Dry Mouth

I have so many side effects against my having dry mouth. My medications is the main reason but, so can my diabetes. Dry mouth is known as xerostomia and I can’t seem to stimulate the production of my saliva no matter what I do. My mouth can become so dry that I have developed sore cracks in the corners of my mouth. Other symptoms like dry tongue, dry throat, and fissures on my tongue are just some of the discomforts.  I can even become hoarse or unable to form my words because of how dry I’ve become.

I don’t suffer from cervical nerve damage or an autoimmune syndrome. Every healthcare professional has no solution for me except to use lozenges and drink fluids. Apparently my age has some type of correlation to the my aliment. That’s nothing that I haven’t tried already. I do use a mouth wash for dry mouth after brushing my teeth and that does seem to have a short term effect of my symptoms.
Good dental hygiene also gives some relief.

That’s about all I can do. I hope that when some of my illnesses recover, such as diabetes and hypertention, I am able to relieve some of this discomfort. It is a frustrating discomfort but one I am willing to endure rather than stopping my psych meds.

Quench My Thirst, Please!

Quench My Thirst, Please!What to do about dry mouth

I have so many side effects against my having dry mouth. My medications is the main reason but, so can my diabetes. Dry mouth is known as xerostomia and I can’t seem to stimulate the production of my saliva no matter what I do. My mouth can become so dry that I have developed sore cracks in the corners of my mouth. Other symptoms like dry tongue, dry throat, and fissures on my tongue are just some of the discomforts.  I can even become hoarse or unable to form my words because of how dry I’ve become.  

I don’t suffer from cervical nerve damage or an autoimmune syndrome. Every healthcare professional has no solution for me except to use lozenges and drink fluids. Apparently my age has some type of correlation to the my aliment. That’s nothing that I haven’t tried already. I do use a mouth wash for dry mouth after brushing my teeth and that does seem to have a short term effect of my symptoms.
Good dental hygiene also gives some relief. 

That’s about all I can do. I hope that when some of my illnesses recover, such as diabetes and hypertention, I am able to relieve some of this discomfort. It is a frustrating discomfort but one I am willing to endure rather than stopping my psych meds.

Fired Up and Needing Relief

  
I’m currently in a situation that rightfully has my goat. I can feel my heart racing, unable to concentrate,
irritable, stressed, and exhaustedly down. I resorted to finding a solution that can help me cool my jets.I could provide the words by doctors Hanson and Mendius regarding the pathophysiological events of the sympathetic nervous system – the parasympathetic response for calming but, that’s science and I want to concentrate on my mental capacity to release the strain and find peace when my current situation does not allow for relief.  
My recurrent situation that has occurred for years now has produced a chronic stress within. I am aware that this has taken such a toll on my wellbeing, even my health. Yet, there won’t be any relief as long as the infliction by its perpetrator continues on. This redundant hurt that has shown no signs of relief feels like a ton of weight that lies heavy within my heart.

How must I find the release within that may allow me to sustain my well-being? I know the common methods of relief such as meditation, journaling, and so on. My tunnel vision won’t allow me to unlock my obsessive lack of concentration.There is a part of me that refuses to release my burden in hopes that I may find a solution to this matter. I’m much too fired up within to even try and talk about it with my support team. Its been dreadful for me to travel down this relentless road of loneliness.

  
Usually, I share the helpful interventions that work for me but I have none. I have no outcome to speak of. Right now, in this moment, I have none.

Fired Up and Needing Relief

  
I’m currently in a situation that rightfully has my goat. I can feel my heart racing, unable to concentrate,
irritable, stressed, and exhaustedly down. I resorted to finding a solution that can help me cool my jets.I could provide the words by doctors Hanson and Mendius regarding the pathophysiological events of the sympathetic nervous system – the parasympathetic response for calming but, that’s science and I want to concentrate on my mental capacity to release the strain and find peace when my current situation does not allow for relief.  
My recurrent situation that has occurred for years now has produced a chronic stress within. I am aware that this has taken such a toll on my wellbeing, even my health. Yet, there won’t be any relief as long as the infliction by its perpetrator continues on. This redundant hurt that has shown no signs of relief feels like a ton of weight that lies heavy within my heart.

How must I find the release within that may allow me to sustain my well-being? I know the common methods of relief such as meditation, journaling, and so on. My tunnel vision won’t allow me to unlock my obsessive lack of concentration.There is a part of me that refuses to release my burden in hopes that I may find a solution to this matter. I’m much too fired up within to even try and talk about it with my support team. Its been dreadful for me to travel down this relentless road of loneliness.

  
Usually, I share the helpful interventions that work for me but I have none. I have no outcome to speak of. Right now, in this moment, I have none.

Finding My Beauty

Finding My Beauty
  

Isn’t ironic that actress, Linda Hamilton, best known as Sarah Connor from the movie Terminator and played the leading role on the TV series Beauty and The Beast was later diagnosed with bipolar at the age of 40. I admire her courage for publicly announcing on Larry King about her disorder. I find it interesting when she admitted the signs of her illness during her first marriage, reared its beastly self during pregnancy. How beauty turned into her own beast.

That is exactly when I felt my own behavioral change as well. Could it be that the release of hormones while pregnant exacerbates bipolar disorder or was it just my age that helped lend entering into the beasts cave?  I distinctly remember thinking that these behavioral reactions never were so pronounced as then. Yet, I was the least bit alarmed. I felt my reactions were justified. I’m right and the whole world is to blame.

Today, the beast in me is faced wih the shame in the aftermath. Yes, the men were poor choices. I was drawn to the needy, thinking I could nurture to change despite my knowledge that I am incapable of changing anyone. Instead, I went broke supporting them. Sometimes money suddenly disappeared from my account. And that’s just the financial aspect. Allow me to skip the painful abuse I endured.

Rick Hanson,PhD.and Richard Mendius,MD states “your mind is built from experiences you have.” taken from the book Buddha’s Brain. “Implicit memory” is your “expectations, models of relationships, emotional tendencies, and general outlook.” The idea that something tragic or negative will make you stronger. I never agreed with that notion. All I ever felt from these emotional traumas is a numbness that “the pain was so big, I felt nothing all.” ( John Lennon) How could I dismiss the horror when I was filled with so much fear?  

My support team says I need to find the positive experiences rather than suppress them as a negative experience. Seriously? “Look for the beauty”. Ha! Where is the beauty in the beast I’ve become?  

I’ve been working on this homework for weeks now. And I am moving forward in recovery by “internalizing the positive”. Imagine that, I am finding the good in my daily life. The enormous gratitude for the loved ones who stood by me. The look of unconditional love in the eyes of my husband when he looks into my eyes, the laugher when viewing older video tapes. The beauty in past experiences before the rabbit hole began. The laughter and beautiful smile I should strive to reestablish.

Dr. Hanson and Dr. Mendius recommends to “savor the experience.”An example is “when someone is good to you, let the feeling warm your heart, throughout your chest.” Savor the moment. As my therapist classifies me, I am a “newborn” in the healing of recovery. “You have all the skills, a hefty toolbox to work from.” The phrase from Tibetan Buddhism-The clearing of these (skills) is a progressive process of training, purification and transformation.  

  
Can it be that I can calm the beast within? In conclusion by Dr. Hanson and Mendius, virtue, mindfulness, and wisdom are the pillars of everyday wellbeing. Is it working? All I can tell you is that my family are reacting positively and my smile is returning without effort. It’s the best direction I’ve had in a long time and I’m enjoying the beauty. So long to the beast. Will she return? Possibly but, I have the strategies and skills to deal with her.

Finding My Beauty

Finding My Beauty
  

Isn’t ironic that actress, Linda Hamilton, best known as Sarah Connor from the movie Terminator, played the TV role called Beauty and The Beast. How ironic that Linda was diagnosed as being bipolar at the age of 40. I admire her courage for publicly announcing on Larry King about her bipolar. I find it interesting when she admitted the signs of her illness , during her first marriage reared it’s beastly self during her pregnancy. How beauty turned into her own beast.

That is exactly when I felt my own behavioral changes as well. Could it be that the release of hormones in pregnancy exacerbates bipolar disorder or was it just my age that helped lend to the beast entrance? I distinctly remember thinking that these behavioral reactions of obvious highs and lows wasn’t so pronounced as before. Yet, I was the least bot alarmed. I felt my reactions were justified and most of it was it’s how I reacted to them wasn’t.

Today, the beast in me is the shame I deal with the most. Yes, the men were poor choices. I was drawn into the needy thinking I could nurture to change despite my knowledge that I am incapable of changing anyone. Instead, I went broke supporting them. Sometimes money suddenly disappears from my account. And that’s just the financial aspect. Allow me to skip the painful abuse I endured.

Rick Hanson,PhD.and Richard Mendius,MD states “your mind is built from experiences you have.” taken from the book Buddha’s Brain. “Implicit memory” is your “expectations, models of relationships, emotional tendencies, and general outlook.” The idea that something tragic or negative will make you stronger. I never agreed with that notion. All I ever felt from these emotional traumas is a numbness that “the pain was so big, I felt nothing all.” ( John Lennon) How could I dismiss the horror when I was filled with so much fear?  

My support team says I need to find the positive experiences rather than suppress them as a negative experience. Seriously? “Look for the beauty”. Ha! Where is the beauty in the beast I’ve become?  

I’ve been working on this homework for weeks now. And I am moving forward in recovery by “internalizing the positive”. Imagine that, I am finding the good in my daily life. The enormous gratitude for the loved ones who stood by me. The look of unconditional love in the eyes of my husband when he looks into my eyes, the laugher when viewing older video tapes. The beauty in past experiences before the rabbit hole began. The laughter and beautiful smile I should strive to reestablish.

Dr. Hanson and Dr. Mendius recommends to “savor the experience.”An example is “when someone is good to you, let the feeling warm your heart, throughout your chest.” Savor the moment. As my therapist classifies me, I am a “newborn” in the healing of recovery. “You have all the skills, a hefty toolbox to work from.” The phrase from Tibetan Buddhism-The clearing of these (skills) is a progressive process of training, purification and transformation.  

  
Can it be that I can calm the beast within? In conclusion by Dr. Hanson and Mendius, virtue, mindfulness, and wisdom are the pillars of everyday wellbeing. Is it working? All I can tell you is that my family are reacting positively and my smile is returning without effort…or is it. It’s the best direction I’ve had in a long time and I’m enjoying the beauty. So long to the beast. Will she return? Possibly but, I have the strategies and skills to deal with her.

Why You Absolutely Must Love Yourself

Originally posted on Soul of Therapy :

When you cannot love yourself, not much else in your life will really matter.

The accomplishments won’t matter. The perfect body or the perfect car or perfect house won’t really matter, either. You may be on the proverbial hamster wheel towards success, doing what you are supposed to be doing, going through the motions of an adjusted and functional life, but without the component of self-love, a chronic hollowness and emptiness will prevail.

Most likely, you will attempt to fill this hollowness with whatever substituting forms of validation and security you can find, whether it be in another person, the throes of an encompassing addiction, or the materialistic chase for a bigger and better life. It may even take on the more subtle forms of constantly trying to “make yourself over,” whether it be with a person, job, appearance, location, or life passion. We will do whatever we can to reduce this void…

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Why You Absolutely Must Love Yourself

Originally posted on Soul of Therapy :

When you cannot love yourself, not much else in your life will really matter.

The accomplishments won’t matter. The perfect body or the perfect car or perfect house won’t really matter, either. You may be on the proverbial hamster wheel towards success, doing what you are supposed to be doing, going through the motions of an adjusted and functional life, but without the component of self-love, a chronic hollowness and emptiness will prevail.

Most likely, you will attempt to fill this hollowness with whatever substituting forms of validation and security you can find, whether it be in another person, the throes of an encompassing addiction, or the materialistic chase for a bigger and better life. It may even take on the more subtle forms of constantly trying to “make yourself over,” whether it be with a person, job, appearance, location, or life passion. We will do whatever we can to reduce this void…

View original 791 more words

Why You Absolutely Must Love Yourself

Originally posted on Soul of Therapy :

When you cannot love yourself, not much else in your life will really matter.

The accomplishments won’t matter. The perfect body or the perfect car or perfect house won’t really matter, either. You may be on the proverbial hamster wheel towards success, doing what you are supposed to be doing, going through the motions of an adjusted and functional life, but without the component of self-love, a chronic hollowness and emptiness will prevail.

Most likely, you will attempt to fill this hollowness with whatever substituting forms of validation and security you can find, whether it be in another person, the throes of an encompassing addiction, or the materialistic chase for a bigger and better life. It may even take on the more subtle forms of constantly trying to “make yourself over,” whether it be with a person, job, appearance, location, or life passion. We will do whatever we can to reduce this void…

View original 791 more words