Holy GOD I didn’t know if I would make it to Christmas, I got so sick with the flu, or maybe it was African Sleeping Sickness? I have been in bed for the last two days, no lie. The only thing I managed to get up for was to feed the birds. I worked at home on Thursday and Friday because I could feel something coming on, but I didn’t know it was a Mac truck coming to run me down! This flu is BADDDDDDD!! I didn’t even eat for two days! My appetite was just gone. Oh well I am somewhat better today, I am out of bed, drinking coffee and contemplating taking a much-needed shower. I think I will go to Christmas with the family, our white elephant gift exchange is so fun, with people stealing gifts from each other, etc., it’s a hoot. You just can’t get too invested in your gift.
I’ve been thinking about past Christmases, the best, (when I got a Baby Alive that I could feed and it peed and pooped in its diaper) the worst (when I got a Bible and magenta sweatpants) and there have been some great Christmases as an adult too, mostly when I had really nicely-behaving boyfriends who made me feel totally loved and showered me with gifts. Ah, those were the days. I miss my youth. People who are young: ENJOY YOUR YOUTH! It doesn’t last and then you miss it!! So enjoy it while you’re there!!
I haven’t decided if I’m going to go to work tomorrow, yes it’s three weeks and counting. I have been doing some major bullshit to fill my time but major bullshit is the name of the game with this job. I will not be sad to leave this job but I’ll be sad to give up the paychecks. The end is coming soon and I have no future job prospects. Eeek! I did not foresee a career change / return to the full-time job market after four years to be as hard as it is. I should just have a sign in my house that says “Life is hard. Deal with it.”
Still not smoking, thank God, I think I would be much sicker if I were smoking through this flu. So I am grateful for that.
I hope you all have a lovely Christmas, Hanukkah or whatever holiday you celebrate this time of year!! Take care of yourselves and keep me posted on how you are, will ya? Peace!
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