Daily Archives: October 4, 2017
It is an extremely common thing for people who are around depressed people to feel like they have to walk on eggshells. People have said this to me many times: ‘oh, we didn’t want to mention it because we thought it would upset you’, or ‘I don’t even know how to approach you about this […]
Today is shaping up to be a blessedly normal day. No drama, no internal strife, no anxiety, no mood swings. I’m just happy. I have longed for days like this for so long. I hope to hear soon from some of the outlets I have sent work to, but every day without a rejection is a good day. It means I am still being considered. And I have sent off to some really high profile journals, so hopefully I will be blessed one day with an acceptance. I need to send out more in October so I am looking for those opportunities.
I am so blessed so far this semester with everything going well that I wonder what God is trying to prepare me for with so much peace. Whatever it is, I hope I can endure. Thanks to all of you who read and who pray for me as we travel along together. Days like today I can almost forget I have bipolar disorder,
Today I went to see my shrink and she increased my pristiq because it seems to be helping some. I’m getting a little more involved in things and am looking forward to doing more.
Did I mention I love my shrink. We have so much in common, it feels like visiting a friend. She explained to me while I am emotionally shut off from people right now. Apparently when you are in a depressive state for a long time you put up all sorts of walls and when you start coming out of that depression sometimes it is still hard to drop those walls and be vulnerable. I agree with her. I’ve blocked out feelings for so long, not even allowing myself to cry at a sad moment. Now it’s hard for me to laugh out loud or cry or any other emotion. I’m working on it though.
I’m glad I have such a good doctor. I’m thankful for her. Do you have a shrink or doctor you like a great deal?