Daily Archives: October 4, 2017
Today is shaping up to be a blessedly normal day. No drama, no internal strife, no anxiety, no mood swings. I’m just happy. I have longed for days like this for so long. I hope to hear soon from some of the outlets I have sent work to, but every day without a rejection is a good day. It means I am still being considered. And I have sent off to some really high profile journals, so hopefully I will be blessed one day with an acceptance. I need to send out more in October so I am looking for those opportunities.
I am so blessed so far this semester with everything going well that I wonder what God is trying to prepare me for with so much peace. Whatever it is, I hope I can endure. Thanks to all of you who read and who pray for me as we travel along together. Days like today I can almost forget I have bipolar disorder,
Today I went to see my shrink and she increased my pristiq because it seems to be helping some. I’m getting a little more involved in things and am looking forward to doing more.
Did I mention I love my shrink. We have so much in common, it feels like visiting a friend. She explained to me while I am emotionally shut off from people right now. Apparently when you are in a depressive state for a long time you put up all sorts of walls and when you start coming out of that depression sometimes it is still hard to drop those walls and be vulnerable. I agree with her. I’ve blocked out feelings for so long, not even allowing myself to cry at a sad moment. Now it’s hard for me to laugh out loud or cry or any other emotion. I’m working on it though.
I’m glad I have such a good doctor. I’m thankful for her. Do you have a shrink or doctor you like a great deal?