Well, fuck! Guess what? I STILL haven’t started this fucking job!!!!! These fuckers are going to drive me to drink!!! Why I say WHY did they lead me to believe that I would start right after LABOR DAY and here it is many weeks later and I still haven’t started?!?! And I quit my other jobs and have no income coming in . . . I know I sound like a great big victim here . . . and I kind of FEEL like one . . . I need to look for another job but even if I GET another job it’s going to be a long process and I’m going to go broke in the meantime. FUCK!!!! This is a hell of a stressful situation!! Nothing throws me into a tailspin like precarious finances!!!! I want to knock someone’s block off!!
I guess I need to cut the bullshit and get looking for another job. If this one ends up working out, fine, but in the meantime I need to look for something else. DAMN IT this chaps my hide!! Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer but I am feeling a bit panicked. I haven’t been sleeping well with worrying and I just did some calculations that showed me how serious my finances are.
UPDATE: I applied for one job, contacted two recruiters, and then hid in my bed with the covers pulled up. I had a healthy dinner of Funyuns and Butterfingers. I hope to be asleep by 7:00 pm. I am pitiful. Tomorrow I will tackle the job search anew.
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