Daily Archives: September 2, 2017

It’s Been A While

I’ve been mostly paralyzingly depressed for quite a while and did not feel up to doing anything. I’m starting to feel a little better and thought I should at least write an update.

My shrink has me back on wellbutrin and pristiq but has added in rexulti to make them work better. We haven’t reached goal yet but at least there is some movement out of depression.  I’m still sleeping a lot. I love dreaming and when I get up I’m up for 5 hours before my husband is due home compared to 9 hours if I woke up when regular people do.

I’ve been outside a little bit. Walking with hubby around the neighborhood. That’s something at least, cause I think there was a couple months where I went no where at all.

Little steps. Getting it done.

 


I Thought I Was Ugly. I Didn’t Realize It Was Gender Dysphoria.

"Ugly" was the only word I had to describe my dysphoria, which meant it flew under the radar for a long time.

Learning

Learning how to write with watercolors

 

Learning how to use my Wanting

 

Learning how to stay when all I want to do is go.

 


7 Things I Wish People Hadn’t Said After My Psychiatric Hospitalization

I walked away feeling like I had to carry this burden alone.