Daily Archives: July 12, 2017

Salmon

“Perhaps [ideas] are, for instance, like some big salmon or trout. They are not born fully grown; they are not even born in the sea or water where they normally live. They are born hundreds of miles away from their home grounds, where the rivers narrow to tiny streams. Just as it takes time for […]

Guest Post: Some Words From My Husband

Hey. Man. Have things taken a turn for the worse. God I really lost my motivation. And one of my closest friends is in the hospital for trying to OD on his bipolar meds plus some other stuff. I’ve been an emotional wreck. I can’t even write. I don’t know what’s wrong. And the negative … More Guest Post: Some Words From My Husband

Job Search Blues

Great news!  I didn’t die on my hike!  It was so…fucking….hard…and so…fucking….steep!!!  I didn’t make it all the way up the mountain and that is ok with me.  My niece and I made it about a quarter of the way and went back down, thoroughly exhausted.  It was hot as hell, too.  We waited at the bottom for my sister and her two kids, who did the whole hike up to the hidden lakes.  I feel good for what I did and glad I didn’t push myself beyond what I could do, because coming down was just as hard as going up.  Did I tell you how hard it was???  It was a BEAR!!

So now I am home and back to reality and my reality BITES.  I am looking for a job hot & heavy and I’m finding that many prospective employers want two supervisory references and guess what??  I can’t provide two!!  WOW just as I am writing this I had a brainstorm that I can provide Dr. Flaky and Dr. HasHerShitTogether BAM two supervisory references!!!  Other than those two I have not gotten along with my supervisors.  I tell you, Authority Issues should be my middle name!!!  (Thank you, Dad).  Whoa I feel better now that I thought of Dr. HasHerShitTogether!!!  I think that problem is solved!!!

I still am having a problem with WILLINGNESS to get a job, i.e. I don’t have it.  I know I NEED a job and I NEED money but I sure don’t WANT to get a full-time job.  I honestly don’t know how I am going to do it!!!  I don’t feel like I have the strength or stamina to work a full-time job, yet I don’t feel like I have a choice, either.

I came home to find the baby birds had GROWN in two and a half days and they have a lot more feathers and they seem more alert.  I am talking to them a lot, they better get used to me talking to them!!  They are cuter than shit and I promise to get out the good camera and try to get a pic!

My birthday is tomorrow, I’ll be 51 years OLD!!!  I can’t believe it.  I wish I could roll the years backward.  I’m going to my parents to work.  BOO!!!  But I need the money.

Hope you are all well and happy.  Peaches….BPOF!


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Good News!

I finally got a nibble on my calls about adjunct teaching. Mississippi College in Clinton called me yesterday and said they possibly would have some openings for fall but definitely for spring.  So I am jumping through all the hoops: filing out an application, requesting transcripts, and getting my CV in their hands.  One final step for the transcripts and everything should be complete.

I also wrote something really neat last night.  There was a contest for baseball writing.  I love baseball.  And I’ve wanted to do something on a particular baseball player that made a stop at a Mississippi independent team back in 1998.  I’ve wanted to write this story for almost 20 years.  And I was all ready to do my research and write this compelling story–and I saw the deadline was that night.  SO instead I went minimalist.  I wrote a nonfiction poem about this story under 200 words that got all the facts in and just shipped it off right after I finished it.  So we will see what they think.

I feel so much better than I did yesterday.  I hope this with MC really does work out. The department head sounded very encouraging.  So maybe it will.