Wow, lots going on. Well I have four baby birdies, they are between and week and five days old. They were born over the span of a few days obviously. Two of the eggs did not hatch and that is fine with me! Four babies is enough! They are precious and I’m so sorry I don’t have a picture for you, it’s impossible to get a good picture into the nest!! I need to haul the “good” camera out and try with that, so far I am too lazy. The youngest one has “arms” but the older ones have beautiful little wings. They make demanding little cheeping noises when they want to be fed. Peaches and Herb spend a lot of time eating so they can feed them. I am going out of town tomorrow for a couple of days and it’s going to KILL ME to leave the babies!!! I’m sure I will be obsessing over them the whole time. I am amazed at how bonded I have become to my little birds.
This was a stressful week on the job front. First of all, I am looking for a job, and that is stressful. Secondly, Dr. Flaky (my current employer, you may have heard of her in the past) kept getting voicemails from pharmacies where she had prescribed drugs for her patients saying they showed that her license to practice medicine had expired, and she was having me call them to say it had not. Finally Dr. Flaky got a little freaked out and sent me to her office (she is on vacation) to find her current license and lo and behold, there was NOT one because SHE DIDN’T RENEW HER LICENSE!!!! This is a crisis of epic proportions because she can not practice medicine or prescribe drugs without a license!!! SO! She has to re-apply for her license and go before the Medical Board of the state, and in the meantime she has to find someone to cover her practice. It’s all kinds of fucked up. I should know when I get back on Wednesday exactly what is happening, like, who is covering her practice, and who (she or I) is calling patients to cancel ten weeks’ worth of appointments (it will take ten weeks to get her license back). Holy moly this was stressful. I wanted to drink and get high but I am trying not to drink because it’s not good for me and I am not getting high because I have to get ready to pass a drug test (DAMN THE DRUG TESTS!!!) for a new job. So I am COPING without substances. What a novel idea!!!
So today is Day 10 of not getting high. I had developed quite the daily habit, which makes it all the more amazing that I was able to pass the CEH certification. They say that marijuana is not habit-forming, or addictive, but I sure formed the habit. The first few days off marijuana, I was very achy and had stiff joints. I was miserable. I know I am better off without the marijuana, even though I love being high, it triggers binge eating in me and I am super-fat right now and very uncomfortable in my body. It’s definitely not a healthy habit for me and I hope I can stay off it. I may sound like a broken record here because I’m sure I’ve said this before.
Well I’m off to Glenwood Springs tomorrow. We are going on a hike on our way into Glenwood Springs to see the Hanging Lakes and I hope and pray that I don’t have a heart attack on the hike. It would sure disappoint my nieces and nephews to see their Aunt fall down and die. My sister wouldn’t like it either. I’m not too jazzed about soaking in the hot springs in Glenwood when it’s so hot already but I am excited just to get away. I haven’t had anything resembling a vacation in a couple of years so I hope that a) I don’t die and b) I get some enjoyment out of it.
Well that’s all the exciting news from Bipolar On Fire-Ville! Other than stress, my mood is pretty good and steady, yay drugs! Hope you all are doing well! Peach out!
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