Daily Archives: June 19, 2017

Stoner Mac ‘N’ Cheese aka Heart Attack Mac

I am going to share with you the most wonderful recipe I seem to have invented last night, stoned, in the middle of some serious munchies.  Since I didn’t have much on hand, I seized upon Pasta!  And Cheese!  And said I Can Make Something!!  These are the precise instructions on how to make Stoner Mac ‘N’ Cheese aka Heart Attack Mac.

Throw half a stick of butter in a pot and turn on the burner.  Once it melts, pour directly from the flour sack until you have a small mountain of flour in the butter.  Begin to stir, realize there’s too much flour, and add a little more butter.  Once you have a nice paste, introduce the Half N Half.  Just pour it on in, one glop at a time, stir, and start to form a slurry.  What you’re looking for here is something resembling pancake batter.  You may at this point be saying AH HELL NAH I AIN’T MAKING NO PANCAKE-BATTER CHEESE SAUCE to which I say STAY WITH ME BITCH IT’S HEART ATTACK MAC AND IT’LL BE THE BEST YOU EVER HAD!!  Ok back to the “sauce”.  You have a nice hot slurry.  Now we’re gonna throw in any available cheese into it.  For me this was about ¾ of a cup of shredded cheddar, and ½ a cup of shredded parmesan.  Stir, stir, stir.  Now ya got pancake cheese sauce slurry.  Keep that sucker warm and in the meantime cook up ½ a bag of seashell pasta for 10 minutes or so.  Drain, and pour your slurry over the drained pasta.  Mix!  Toss into a glass casserole (I didn’t even grease the damn thing) and hand-sprinkle some Italian Bread Crumbs on top (again it’s what’s on hand) and throw that sucker in a 350-degree oven for fifteen minutes.  Voila!  Heart Attack Mac and I SWEAR THE SHIT IS GOOD!!!

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The Fixxxer

I try to be a fixer. Or, maybe I don’t try so much as I can’t get out of my own way sometimes. I don’t think I’m particularly good at fixing things, by the way. It isn’t really a strength of mine. But that is where I often find myself. That’s at least part of […]

Writing to Discipline My Thoughts

This morning I attended an OC Writers’ write-in. I haven’t attended a writers’ group in a long time. Been isolating myself and focusing on my son rather than my writing, rather than myself. Today, I left him home in bed,…

Father’s Day

So we went to see my dad on Saturday and Robert on Sunday.  It all went fairly well.  Bob stayed home with my middle one since she was still on a bland diet.  So just me and the youngest one went to my parents’ house.  We had a good trip in that we talked some and listened to some good music.  I need to get used to her being the only child at home; that’s going to be a big switch in a couple of weeks.

I’ve been dragging this morning.  Not sure why.  I need to go to the grocery store for supper tonight and see what I can come up with.  But I am very tired and not quite sure why.

I’m doing better on my mss than I thought I might.  I am remembering more and doing a good job of jogging my memory. I’m only about two months into the nine-month period I haven’t written about before and I need to figure out how to prompt my memory for the rest of it.

I am trying an experiment.  I am waiting to eat until I am actually hungry.  That means I plan to eat around lunchtime my first meal today because I’m really not hungry this morning.  Maybe if I quit shoving food down when it’s “mealtime” I can get a handle on my weight.  WE will see.

Hope everyone has a good start to their week.


I May Have Created A Monster

Peaches has now laid FIVE EGGS!!!  What the hell am I gonna do with five more birds????  Oh Holy God I may have a crisis on my hands when these little critters are born!!  Granted, all the eggs may not hatch.  Then again, Peaches might not be done laying her eggs!  I thought it would be fun to have two babies.  TWO!  At this rate, I’m gonna be starting an aviary in my little micro-apartment!!  Time will tell what becomes of this Crazy Bird Lady . . .

Today I am going to Mom and Dad’s to be the maid.  That’s what I do on Mondays and Fridays.  And I don’t.  Want.  To.  Go.  I am SO LAZY!!  And I have to work HARD there!!  Being a maid is fucking hard work.  It’s getting later and later . . . I should be in the shower by now . . . the resistance is strong in this one . . . dammit fuck.  I guess I better force myself . . . get used to what it will be like to have a regular JOB!

Speaking of which I have gotten some calls regarding jobs I’ve applied for . . . jobs I am wildly unqualified for, but dammit I got these certifications and I want to work in the Security field!  SOMEONE has to be willing to train me!  One job sounds perfect . . . it’s right here in Longmont and it’s only 25-30 hours per week at $40/hour, hell I could live on that and part-time is right up my ally.  I get SO BURNED OUT working a full-time job, I’d KILL for a part-time job!!!  They are sending the company, Crocs of the ugly shoes, my resume.  We shall see.

Well I better get my ample ass in the shower.  Those red beans & rice aren’t gonna cook themselves, neither is the wall gonna paint itself.  Fuckers.  Have a great Monday!


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Why Bipolar Disorder Can’t be Blamed for Everything

fault picThose of us who have bipolar disorder or other mental illnesses are often haunted by things like, “Have you taken your meds?” or “Do you think that because you are doing crazy things you should be admitted into the hospital?” or “Should you be doing that in your state?” or “Don’t think you can do that because with your illness it is impossible.”  I think you get the idea and probably have a lot more to add.

Yes- These things bother me and most likely a lot of you. However, at the same time, and you will probably not like this: Just because you have bipolar disorder doesn’t give you the right to do things without consequences.

What I mean by that is this:  If you are manic and have bad judgement or hurt someone because you are more free in what you say or do, does not mean you get a pass.  Yes- Some of your loved ones will forgive you and some may even chalk it up to you having a mental illness and accept you. However, this does not mean you should take this chance. Another thing to consider is that you could have embarrassed them. Please point out to them that you are the one who did the things that embarrassed them and although they could be embarrassed, they should explain to the others that you have a mental illness. By doing this, it can open up the eyes of so many people who are ignorant when it comes to severe mental illness.

Do everything you can not to get manic so that you don’t do things you regret.  If you do do things when you are manic, remember that it is important to apologize. Even if you know the loved one has forgiven you and will forgive you the next time too, they will not forget.  They will also not forget that you apologized. This will help them remember that you are doing everything in your power to stay healthy and do know that you remember doing those things and appreciate them forgiving you.

Yes- Bipolar disorder can be blamed for having a hard time in life. It can pose many challenges.  It can also be the cause of a lot of heartache, lost friendships, and a lot of sleepless nights reflecting on the things you have done.  However, please don’t accept a free pass when you do something while you are sick.  There are things you can do to avoid doing things you regret and definitely do things afterwards when you have hurt others or done embarrassing things.


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“If I Could Save Time In A Bottle”

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