Daily Archives: April 20, 2017

I Feel So Much Better!!!

It’s amazing to me how just putting myself out there and saying how I feel can make me feel better!  I don’t want to do it, especially when the feelings aren’t super-delicious, and yesterday was one of those days.  I’m just…scared, like, will people think I’m a big asshole?  And, sometimes I am an asshole!  But feeling bad doesn’t make me an asshole.  Acting like I’m always o.k. does.

Anyhoo, I just really appreciate all the love and support from BlogLand!!  It has made me feel not-lonely and like I can keep going with this studying thing.  I also did some fancy things today that made me feel good, like dyeing my hair (not going to give in to the grays FUCK YOU GRAY HAIR!) and taking a shower (didn’t happen to do that since Monday!), and putting on clean clothes.  SO FANCY.  So I feel shiny and new and gosh, someone should take me out for enchiladas or somethin’!  Life is good.  Thank you, BlogLand!

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Vyvanse malestrom

(In which I moan about ADD medication)

I really need to get off the Vyvanse.

I'm almost positive it's giving me terrible mood swings.  It wasn't this bad when I first started taking it.

At first it kind of went like this :

1) Take Vyvanse
2) After about 30 minutes it starts kicking in.
3) Feel upbeat and as if I will be able to accomplish all my goals
4) Stay focused for 6-8 hours
5) Effects slowly wear off followed by a period of irritability and low energy.  Thoughts on the future and what I will be able to accomplish turn pessimistic.

Slowly over time the different mental states became more and more extreme while the  transitions between those states became sudden and jarring.

NOTE: This is an older post.  I am actually off the Vyvanse now and I think it was a good decision.  I'll write more later!





Fighting

to stay awake and not winning.  I thought I was going to get more done this morning, but I wrote an essay around eight this morning then laid down around nine and just now managed to wake up for good.  I don’t know if the sleepiness is the harbinger of anything more interesting or not.  Ugh.

I need to do laundry today too and just don’t feel up to it.  The only thing I want to do is sleep.  I’m drinking another full loaded Coke this lunchtime to try and wake up some more–the one at breakfast just isn’t cutting it anymore.  I hate what this lethargy is going to do for my weight but I don’t know what else I can do.

I’m still looking forward to my event tomorrow and will see what comes of my participation in that.  I want to really present myself professionally and show them what someone in full recovery can do.  I just need to stay awake the whole time 🙂

Week four of the Blue Apron experiment is still going well.  I cook the meals on Thursday and Friday, everything is so fresh and tastes so good without my really trying hard at it. I just follow the directions.  It’s eased down my anxiety about getting ready to cook every night a great deal.  Bob seems to love it too.  THis week is porkchops in apricot sauce and turkey burgers. So there are some really nice combinations.

 


Article: Cannabis compound may halve seizures for patients with severe epilepsy

Cannabis compound may halve seizures for patients with severe epilepsy

http://flip.it/UjtIiI

Um, yeah.  

Ohio State University scientists have proven what those of us who have been using the herb medicinally have known for years: Cannabidiol, or CBD, is a powerful antiepileptic medicine.  The article mentions a few of the other conditions and illnesses that CBD is known to help.

And in the tradition of medications being used precisely because of their side effects (think belladonna [atropine] which dries up respiratory secretions), note that the only side effects to CBD mentioned are sedation and appetite loss.  Useful, those, in certain circumstances.

While this publication is great news for helping to refute idiot attorneys general who still think cannabis has no medical benefit, it’s also cause for caution: right now the biggest threat to unrestricted adult use is…Big Pharma!

Yes, Big Pharma knows good medicine when it smells the scent of Big Money.  And friends, cannabis is big money, no matter how you cut it.

Big Pharma would much rather see the money from cannabis medicine in its own pocket, and we all know that Big Pharma has lots of senators and other influential players in its own pockets.

One chilling example: Arizona’s 2016 ballot measure that would have legalized adult use was narrowly shot down, largely due to a fierce anti-cannabis campaign bankrolled by the drug giant Insys, which is quartered in Arizona.  Insys produces a large proportion of the synthetic opioid fentanyl that is produced in the U.S.  Fentanyl is used in anesthesia and various delivery systems for treating pain.  It’s also been the culprit in many of the recent opioid overdose deaths we hear so much about.

You may be thinking: oh, right, statistics show that in states with legal cannabis, opioid prescriptions decline by about one-third.  So of course an opioid manufacturer doesn’t want that!

It gets worse.

Seems that Insys was just on the point of rolling out its first synthetic cannabinoid, a THC analog that is pretty much redundant not only because there are already synthetic THC products on the market, but also because anyone with a medical marijuana card can get their THC straight from the source.  

But that’s “not good for business,” as Texas Senator Ted Cruz pointed out when I mentioned that rolling back clean air laws is not good for children.  So Insys spent half a million bucks a couple of weeks before the election on a rabid T.V. ad campaign, spreading fear among the uninformed, mouthing the old saws about how marijuana causes violence, crime, unemployment, blah blah blah, and it worked.

So on one hand, the more good science, the more knowledge, the less fear, the better the public can understand and accept cannabis as medicine.

On the other, the more science, the more Big Pharma sees opportunity, the more danger that our access to this amazing plant could be once again restricted, in its natural form, in favor of…pills.

Reblog – Something About People Doing Right

Originally posted on The Tony Burgess Blog:
Just because one is famous does not give them license to get away with things that demean or harm others. Powerful people have great opportunity to make life better for those around them…