It won’t be official until tomorrow, but I’ve made high A’s on all four of my written papers and full credit for the various discussions we’ve had as a class, so I am anticipating keeping my 4.0 GPA. My professor have very nice things to say about was my final paper and that made me feel good. It was “good enough” just as I hoped.
I had a very interesting dream this morning. If there’s one creative thing I’m not good at, it’s visual art. I can’t draw. I dreamed I was hired to conduct a workshop for at-risk children instructing them in drawing to express themselves. I was also commissioned to do a visual art piece as a permanent installation at the facility I was doing the workshop at. Well, of course what I did during the exercises was no good, and my art piece was relly not good either. But the director was so kind and encouraging, saying she knew what I was doing was not in my wheelhouse and that what I was doing could be improved with this or that change, I took her advice a presented something if not beautiful then meaningful to the students and to me. And the director loved it.
Usually a dream like that for me the outcome is always pejorative. I’m going to fail the class, the exam, the paper, the test, whatever the challenge is. I woke up this morning feeling peaceful in a way I haven’t in a long time. I think the lesson is that I will always be good enough. I think the director was speaking God’s message to me that whatever I do creatively is good enough and that I don’t need to worry. And I need to move on to new projects if one project does not work out. So we will see if I can keep that peaceful lesson.