Daily Archives: February 25, 2016
A simple notebook is my method for dealing with my “madness” – or at least with the mental fog and distortion that comes with depression. It helps me keep working.
I feel so good today. I got up, did everything for the morning and went back to bed until 9. No recriminations, no condemnations. I got up and started laundry, then I went to the grocery store and bought for the weekend. I’ve sorted my laundry and ate lunch–peanut butter and crackers, potato chips, a Samoa Girl Scout cookie, and a big glass of water. Maybe not the best lunch, but I enjoyed it sitting outside on our back patio. The weather is great today–sunny and in the 50’s. I feel so good inside and out.
Got the call back from the hospital and my insurance company approved my Abilify. So they will cover it–I’ll still have a copay and I don’t know what it is yet, but such an answer to prayer.
I started my reading for the week and am taking it slowly. Hopefully I can finish reading today and then do my response tomorrow. Then I need to read the essay up for workshop this week and comment on it. So that will be fun.
My youngest goes on a field trip to Birmingham tomorrow. I’m so glad I did not sign up for it. I think that would have been a little too much to try to do so soon out of the hospital. Hopefully she will have a good time.
I’ve got followup appointments set up with my psychiatrist and my therapist next week about my hospitalization. Hopefully that will all go well. WE have a local dance competition this weekend and then a real one the first weekend of spring break. SO we will see how it goes.
I’m so thankful I summoned up the courage to go to the hospital. I’m so thankful that I finally feel good for the first time in months.
Today I have a humorous guest post on Insights from a Bipolar Bear. You can see it here: http://www.insightsbipolarbear.com/brain-vs-brain/
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Filed under: Mental Health
Today’s post is from one of my favorite bloggers, Janet from Bipolar Me Having bipolar disorder is like having cognitive dissonance all the time. What is cognitive dissonance? When people ask, I usually describe it as when the two halves of your brain slam forcefully into each other and give you a brain-ache. It’s also […]
I found this article quite interesting… What are your thoughts on the 6 signs of emotional abuse? Have you ever experienced any of them? Do you think an emotional abuser […]
This is an exercise you do with yourself. Little is the Inner Child. Big is the Adult You. And the real you is the mediator. So you can stand, and imagine that Little is standing at your left hand side, as Little is weaker, therefore stands on your weaker side (as most people are right handed, so the left hand is the weaker side.)
Big stands at your right hand side, stronger by virtue of being bigger. And you are in the middle, you are the mediator.
Now, Little and Big have a conversation and you mediate. Yes it is imaginary. You don’t even have to stand up. But with this conversation, Big listens to Little’s concerns and assures Little that Big is there for Little and loves Little and will always be there. This conservation is to be had once a day. It will be different everyday, it depends on what your issues are. The point is to make Little feel loved and protected, ALWAYS! If you can do that for your inner child, your fear and neediness will go away. You will realize you don’t need anyone to make you feel loved or safe, miraculously, you can do it for yourself. And that makes you self sufficient and strong!
A sample conversation follows:
Little: Big I was afraid today because the neighbor’s were yelling and you were asleep.
Big: Little, even when I’m asleep, I am still here and I will protect you and I love you. Those neighbor’s cannot come into our place and hurt you.
Little: Are you sure, they sure sounded loud, like mom and dad used to sound.
Big: Little, I know you were scared when mom and dad fought, but I am here to protect you now. I love you little, I will never let anyone hurt you.
Little: Ok Big, thanks. I feel better.
Have your own conversation and let me know how it goes. Hugs for all my readers, fellow bloggers, friends and family. 😻😻😻