Seems like I’ve already done a post titled “Same Shit, Different Day”. Maybe I shouldn’t post at all! But dammit I like to post so deal with it :). Anyhoo, I’m still feeling somewhat shitty. Better, but still shitty.. I *think* an increase in that devil Abilify might be to blame for some flatness I’m feeling. Granted, there is the stress of losing my income, and not knowing what the fuck I’m doing with my life. I have started looking for part-time jobs, but jobs that work with my time constraints (I have commitments on Thursdays and Fridays so that leaves me three available days per week) are few and far between. It seems that employers want part-time workers every day, just not all day. Still, I will keep looking. My Thursday/Friday commitment ends at the end of the school year, so maybe at that time I can get a job. Whether I can perform a job, or keep a job, or keep from bitch-slapping the difficult people I run into on a job . . . well those are all questions that will have to be answered in the future. In the meantime, I’ve come up with a great money-saving scheme: I’ve stopped paying bills. I’m just calling motherfuckers and saying “I lost my income.” What the fuck can they do to me? I don’t care. So, I’m not completely broke. I can still buy gas and coffin nails. What else do I need? Well, a lot. But, here’s the thing. All that shit about being in the moment? Here’s when you can really use that practice. ‘Cause at this moment I can’t do much more than what I’m doing. Worrying doesn’t help. Freaking out doesn’t help. Crying doesn’t help, but I do it anyway. I’m just doing what I can, today. I have about five more days’ worth of work to clean out my storage. I have three weeks to do it, so I’m not worried. Still trying to sell some of the contents. Anyone need a rooftop cargo box for their car? Look me up on Murderlist. In the meantime I guess I’ll work on some tv watching. This time I might even turn it on. Oh btw I quit the marijuana again, it’s giving me too much of the munchies. DAMN THE MUNCHIES!!!! Well people it’s Monday, let’s make it a great week. Ok dammit let’s survive the week! Be in touch! Peach out homies!
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