Apathy

So I went to my psychiatrist’s office today. We all decided I was suffering from apathy. Surprise! He adjusted my medication. He increased my Wellbutrin and Abilify and is taking me off perphenazine.

I AM apathetic. My day looks something like this: wake up at 3 or 4 and take a Klonopin so I can go back to sleep. Turn the TV on low so I can sleep by it. Get up and eat. Crawl onto the couch and read my devotionals.

Check my calendar and see what I ABSOLUTELY have to do. Figure out when I need a shower and to wash my hair. Rest on the couch all day and watch TV. Maybe listen to an audio book.

What am I missing? Friends. I probably have ten friends I could call and go see. I really owe these people some time. I’m not sewing or quilting. I’m not driving or really going anywhere. I’m not writing on my blog and I miss you guys.

Last night my middle son graduated from college. I knew I had to attend that and I wanted to. It was a wonderful ceremony….not too long or crowded. He was so proud of himself and so were we. He graduated summa cum laude.

My youngest son (who drives me nuts)! earned A’s and B’s this semester. Next month he is off to the state university. His classes will be much harder.

I am having anxiety. Health and driving.

I am not depressed and my head feels clear. It will get even clearer off perphenazine.

I am going to try to write more regularly…maybe once a week. Even if it is very short. My doctor said I should force myself. And once I get going, I really like it. I miss you guys a lot.

love,

lily

 

 

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