Man, my last post was a big ray of a turd and I’m sorry about that. I got bad news about needing some super-expensive dental work that I can’t afford and I was envisioning myself being a toothless hillbilly granny. Then I got so down, I wrote another post which I did NOT post where I was basically making my case for suicide. I know. Overwhelmed doesn’t look good on me at all. So my parents came to visit yesterday, and all the grand suicide plans came crashing down. These people who are my parents are SUCH GOOD PEOPLE!!! I can’t hurt them like this!! I just can’t do this to them!! It would really hurt them and I don’t even know if they would get over it.
So. I had to come up with a Plan B. I started wondering how some kick-ass bitch who really advocates for herself would deal with this situation. And my inner Kick Ass Bitch said, you call your old dentist in Boulder and get a reality check. SO! That’s what I did, and man oh man, that reality check was so good, it was almost like an ORGASM!! I SWEAR!!! They quoted me THOUSANDS less, AND said that my insurance would kick in $1500. So basically I would be on the hook for $2300, rather than $5200!! Um, hello!! Gas is $1.99 a gallon right now and I have all the time in the world to drive back to Colorado for this fucking treatment!! Hell yeah!!
It’s not totally a done deal, I faxed them the quote from Florida Dentist, and they will call me back to confirm, but GODDAMN things are looking a LOT better than they were! I mean, A LOT!!! And I am fucking. GRATEFUL!! Oh. I NEEDED something like this!! Now I can sit back and enjoy my visit with my parents without this black thundercloud hanging over me. Holy Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed and Mary, thank you!! A little relief from the pain. Ah. God……..
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