Daily Archives: February 19, 2014

A Rambling Blog Update

Some rambling updates and thoughts…

Random Crap On Facebook, Part Deux

I swear, I have GOT to learn when to stay off that damned site. Unfortunately, I am hopelessly addicted…..and even more unfortunately, I have a low tolerance for political bullshit.

I don’t get it. Somebody needs to explain to me how it is that some folks can talk about wanting tolerance and despising hate, but when I don’t agree with everything they say, they show me INtolerance and hate. It drives me straight up a wall, and while I can go for long periods without calling anybody out on their shit, there is a breaking point, and I reached it this morning.

Although I’m fairly conservative politically, I have several VERY liberal friends who are well-read and intelligent, but who post stuff from far-left websites that’s so outrageous it’s insulting. I have issues with this for a couple of reasons; one, quoting verbatim from the Daily Kos and Mother Jones is intellectually lazy, and two, those ‘publications’ handle polarizing topics with all the sensitivity of a ten-pound sledgehammer. And while the same can certainly be said of right-wing sites like The Tea Party and Chicks on the Right (the latter of which I adore), I don’t feel the need to use them to make my friends feel like dogshit for their beliefs.

There are, of course, exceptions to the rule. In fact, most of my FB friends know when I’m getting manic because that’s when I start arguing politics and posting memes from my own favorite sites. But today, I lost it when a friend posted a story from some hard-core lefto site whose message was basically that white people deserve to be ashamed of their race because of the atrocities some of our forebears committed upon blacks.

I am absolutely NOT going to get into the politics of race. I make no apologies for disliking President Obama and the way I think he’s ruining the country. However, I don’t think he’s a bad person, and I couldn’t give a rat’s ass what ethnicity he is. In fact, I am one of the least prejudiced people I know……it just never occurs to me to think badly of a person because of the shade of his or her skin. We all bleed the same color, we all are made in the same fashion, and we all love our children the same way.

So when this friend’s post launched into a story about a horrendous attack on a black community in Florida in the early 1900s and wound up as a screed against whites in general, I was PISSED, and I posted a rant of my own. She posts literally twenty or more quotes every day that attack, belittle, and demean anyone who thinks like me, but this one was the capper. I wish I knew how to filter this stuff out of my news feed; she knows perfectly well how I feel about it, and while I would never ask her to change her belief system, a little respect for mine shouldn’t be too much to ask.

Now I’ve got a choice: I can either learn to ignore it somehow—even though it’s in my face every fucking day—or unfriend her. I’m all about listening to the other side of a story, and I do try not to take any of this shit personally; but I don’t need to get whacked over the head with a two-by-four every time I log on to FB. It’s not good for either my blood pressure or my state of mind, and politics just isn’t worth blowing a gasket over.

I know…..that ship already sailed. Maybe it’s time to take a break from the social network for a day or two, which will be like pulling teeth without benefit of anesthesia because I AM so addicted. Or maybe I should avoid it just when I’m sick, irritable, and full of piss and vinegar. Ya think??

 

 


Giorgio Armani Maestro Foundation First Impression

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Estee Lauder Double Wear vs Revlon Colorstay Foundations

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Fitness Friday #3

Fitness Friday: my weekly fitness and motivation vlog…

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Bipolar vlog dealing with friendships and the frustration of losing things…

Petition, Anyone?

Mind, one of the better known mental health charities here in the UK, have started a petition to the UK government on the subject of mental health funding:

Mental health services save lives, they need protecting
http://www.change.org/en-GB/petitions/the-uk-gov-t-needs-to-provide-a-fairshare4mentalhealth-funding-sign-mindcharity-petition-today

I try to not put too much non-postypost stuff here, but. I think this is a big sort of deal, especially when the government claims they are supporting the mentally ill and fighting against stigma. How are you supporting improvement in mental health services when we’re talking about a 2%+ cut in real terms to funding? They can fund a pittance for well-meaning policies that still require staffing that isn’t available (seriously, where are these nurses supposed to be coming from?!), and I do mean pittance; one must keep in mind that governments operate in billions, if not trillions.

The fact of the matter is that one in four people will have a mental health issue in the year. That’s a lot of people needing support, and you betcha most of them aren’t getting or asking for the support they need. Hell, it’s hard enough for people with chronic conditions to get help or diagnosis! So please, join me in calling the UK government to account. Thank you.

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I’m actually ok!



I saw my care-coordinator today and I feel so much better. She helps me put things into perspective. She made me realise that actually I am coping really well and I am managing things in a pretty "normal" way. I'm actually ok!  She said that she hasn't noticed any significant changes in my behaviour since coming off the meds and that she would even go as far as to say compared to six months ago I seem much more "stable". She made me realise that maybe if I take a step back and look at all the stuff that's been going on I've actually got through it pretty well. The lack of sleep issue is a concern but she feels that as I continue to get things sorted in my relationships and job and everyday things, hopefully I'll settle back into a proper sleeping pattern. She agrees that as long as I try to keep to a routine and continue to have good insight into my feelings that there's no need to rush back into taking medication. I trust her judgement more than my psychiatrists.
I always worry that because I am not in a crisis or because I'm not taking meds that they will discharge me and I'll be left to fend for myself. Her view is that now is the time I need the support more than ever and that she wouldn't dream of discharging me until I am presenting as "stable" for at least a few months. I find that reassuring. 
I think I've been panicking unnecessarily. I do feel a bit high at times. I do feel depressed at times but I am able to control it. There have been times lately where I've wanted to do some pretty strange things...like drive round to someone's house at three in the morning because I need to tell them something immediately, like punch someone for looking at me in the wrong way, like run away again, like swallow all the leftover pills I've got... but I haven't done any of it because I can think it through. I am a bit over emotional and a bit tearful at times. I do get scared but I'm trying my hardest and no, things are not perfect and sometimes life is really difficult and sometimes I do struggle and sometimes I get it wrong ....but who doesn't? 
In my last blog I said I didn't know what to do. Turns out I'm already doing what I need to do.... Get on with it. 

I’m actually ok!



I saw my care-coordinator today and I feel so much better. She helps me put things into perspective. She made me realise that actually I am coping really well and I am managing things in a pretty "normal" way. I'm actually ok!  She said that she hasn't noticed any significant changes in my behaviour since coming off the meds and that she would even go as far as to say compared to six months ago I seem much more "stable". She made me realise that maybe if I take a step back and look at all the stuff that's been going on I've actually got through it pretty well. The lack of sleep issue is a concern but she feels that as I continue to get things sorted in my relationships and job and everyday things, hopefully I'll settle back into a proper sleeping pattern. She agrees that as long as I try to keep to a routine and continue to have good insight into my feelings that there's no need to rush back into taking medication. I trust her judgement more than my psychiatrists.
I always worry that because I am not in a crisis or because I'm not taking meds that they will discharge me and I'll be left to fend for myself. Her view is that now is the time I need the support more than ever and that she wouldn't dream of discharging me until I am presenting as "stable" for at least a few months. I find that reassuring. 
I think I've been panicking unnecessarily. I do feel a bit high at times. I do feel depressed at times but I am able to control it. There have been times lately where I've wanted to do some pretty strange things...like drive round to someone's house at three in the morning because I need to tell them something immediately, like punch someone for looking at me in the wrong way, like run away again, like swallow all the leftover pills I've got... but I haven't done any of it because I can think it through. I am a bit over emotional and a bit tearful at times. I do get scared but I'm trying my hardest and no, things are not perfect and sometimes life is really difficult and sometimes I do struggle and sometimes I get it wrong ....but who doesn't? 
In my last blog I said I didn't know what to do. Turns out I'm already doing what I need to do.... Get on with it. 

I’m actually ok!



I saw my care-coordinator today and I feel so much better. She helps me put things into perspective. She made me realise that actually I am coping really well and I am managing things in a pretty "normal" way. I'm actually ok!  She said that she hasn't noticed any significant changes in my behaviour since coming off the meds and that she would even go as far as to say compared to six months ago I seem much more "stable". She made me realise that maybe if I take a step back and look at all the stuff that's been going on I've actually got through it pretty well. The lack of sleep issue is a concern but she feels that as I continue to get things sorted in my relationships and job and everyday things, hopefully I'll settle back into a proper sleeping pattern. She agrees that as long as I try to keep to a routine and continue to have good insight into my feelings that there's no need to rush back into taking medication. I trust her judgement more than my psychiatrists.
I always worry that because I am not in a crisis or because I'm not taking meds that they will discharge me and I'll be left to fend for myself. Her view is that now is the time I need the support more than ever and that she wouldn't dream of discharging me until I am presenting as "stable" for at least a few months. I find that reassuring. 
I think I've been panicking unnecessarily. I do feel a bit high at times. I do feel depressed at times but I am able to control it. There have been times lately where I've wanted to do some pretty strange things...like drive round to someone's house at three in the morning because I need to tell them something immediately, like punch someone for looking at me in the wrong way, like run away again, like swallow all the leftover pills I've got... but I haven't done any of it because I can think it through. I am a bit over emotional and a bit tearful at times. I do get scared but I'm trying my hardest and no, things are not perfect and sometimes life is really difficult and sometimes I do struggle and sometimes I get it wrong ....but who doesn't? 
In my last blog I said I didn't know what to do. Turns out I'm already doing what I need to do.... Get on with it.