In Need of Calm



I am going to try to blog something since it has been a few days (I know, I’ve been such a slacker lately) but I am fighting off the beginning of a migraine, so it will probably be fairly brief and pointless.  It has been a rough day.  I had something happen earlier that really upset me, and I am trying to put it behind me and enjoy the rest of the daylight.  This is a common problem with me, and I assume it has a lot to do with the bipolarness of my brain.  I can’t just halfway take anything, I have to fall all to pieces over it, and then I’m left exhausted and wondering why the hell I let myself get so worked up about it in the first place. Gotta love that all-or-nothing thinking.  Anyway, I am going to try to pull myself together now.  I have company coming for supper, for one thing.  I need to get the ball rolling on preparations for that.  The house is a mess.  I need to tidy up and start cooking.  I need to take something for this migraine before it gets too far out of hand for meds to work on it.  I need to CHILL OUT! over all other worries in my mind.  Why is this the hardest part?  What’s it like to let things roll over me and not get stuck in my teeth?  I must research this.  I must find the magic cesspool of no-worries living.  Because, you know, it’s out there.  That perfect way of living.  I just have to find it and make it mine.  

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